When u dont feel right

i know i look so motherly here.

He s Jin Xuen . He s my pyjamas boy and mini boy...

Had a great time on X'mas Party in Enopi ..

Well, i have many sons and daughter...

In this pic, this lil boy is one of my sons, He is Ashton !!!!

I love him so much !!!!
Fair enough, i love everyone of themmm !!!

Dont think they are expecting me to be there

Everyone will talk about their stories, but i m not willing to talk about my stories which could spoilt the mood and get sympathy by everyone.

If people could have be more open minded, i could have feel much more better :)

Anyway. on the other hand ,

MY boss is raising my salary !!!!!!!!!

I m so freaking happy ~~
N N N N N N

I ll be finishing CIMP in 6 months

AND I shall go to New Zealand again for a month !!

And then go to uni..

Might be IMU or Nottingham ??

Hmmm....which one is better ?

Well, i still need to work harder if i want to go Nottingham :) :)

I m so so so excited .

cant wait to get out of that orange buildings which make me feel like puking !!!! :P :P

Tomorrow is the day !

I ll show off my cooking skills !!

Chew Lian special Menu :::

Starter

Mixed Mushroom Soup

&

Baked Wedges with Dipping sauce

Main course

Creamy Spaghetti with Grilled Chicken

Dessert

Root Beer Float Cake with Vanilla ice cream :)

Goodnight !

Unfair

The world is unfair right??

Everytime i m being nice, kind and helpful.

But

people around me judge me as evil, selfish and not sparing some thought for them.

I m not being selfish.

I tried to think for them

but they never understand my good intention.

Instead, they always think i bully them

委屈却没有人诉说 :(

Everytime people complained about me, all i can do is remaining silent and be that bad person.

I tried to ignore, explain but dont seem they listen to me and they keep misunderstand me.

When i do something good, they always belittle me as if i m a devil who never done some good things.

I m not arrogant !

I m not selfish !

I DID SPARE SOME THOUGHT FOR YOU !

CANT U SEE WHAT I VE DONE TO YOU ?????

You never stand up and help me to clear my good name when i m in trouble!!

I m the Devil

I m such a bad friend right ???!!!
:(
:(
I must be thinking too much !!
How can i forgot what ve u all done to me ??
I m soooooooooo SORRY !!

I hate you

I m so busy working hard on my baking skills that i merely forgot about the bloggie !
HAHAHA...
Thts mean i spent my time very wisely and made my timetable very full
When i m not working , u ll see me very often in the kitchen.
Trying on new recipessss :) :)

omg omg...
Something wrong with me !
I hate the guys so much lately !!
So many unglam and rude guys around me !
When i saw a news about a guys commited suicide becos of love ,
I HATE GUYS even more except my idolssss from kdrama or us series i should say ...

Why guys are so sissy now? so useless !
They are worse than the girls.
Such a stupid guy who jumped from the building.
He must be mad...
People on fb called him a HERO, I m gonna call him an IDIOT !! A MORON !!!
An idiot who cant live without a girl !!!!!

The world really change !!!
I seriously wont feel sorry for this kind of person.
Heartbroken still have post on fb ..omg !
Somemore post a crying photo ..omg omg
Come on la....

So many unlucky people want their life..
U go and end ur life becos of a stupid girl
stupid stupid stupid !!
I love my life so much that i dont wanna die also..
So many cancer patients want to have a life like you also can not.

Love is not everything lar..
We still have so much to do rather than love larrr....
Fairy tales is not exist anymore.

Peace !

U wouldnt believe how curious m i in updating the korea war news
Lets pray that they have peace instead or war.
:( :( Please dont ruin my very own south korea trip larrrr !!

Didnt i said i had a miserable week !
I m so sick that i had a terrible headache during my final.
I guess i flunked my final !! T_T especially malaysian studies ..but i m happy still that exam is over !!!
Holiday holiday !
I will definitely upgrade my internet so i can watch mnore dramasssssssssssss :P

Well,
I m not used to live in this new house.
I guess the prob is i have to walk up the stairs to reach my room.
U know i m a lazy woman..hahahhaah
Too much things to be settle.
No internet already made me feel so dead.(currently using 5GB of broadband T_T)
No astro is even worse.
Worst, No door for my room yet !! :(

Still dusty and the mosquitoes flying around....
hope we ll get through all this better and better.

I cant wait to buy the kitchen utensils and start my baking !
HOLIDAY FUN IN BAKING !!!

chew ~~

My favourite past time !

Life sucks without internet.

My stupid splitter spoilt at the wrong timing . wtf !!

I cant live without YouTube and PPS !!! T_T

I need to catch up with my Kdrama and BONES too larrrrrrr...

I can only get online when i move new house next week or probably the week after T_T

SIgh Sigh ...

:( :(

Well, think positively ,

I can concentrate on my revision for my final !

And it can stop me from watching dramas...

hehe..

Till then

chew~

Travelling

Stunning Tasmania ! :)

I used to travel around with my family when i was young...

But i never get the chance to explore the tourism places properly since we always follow the tour guide that are provided by the travel agency.

After i had my long vacation to melbourne and New Zealand, i started to understand that travelling is not about staying in 4 or 5 stars hotel, having the most expensive food and flying with the most comfortable flight .

I started to change my mind.

Travelling is about learning to be independent and adapt to other countries' culture and environment.

We learn to read the map, experience their public transport, explore their culture and heritages.

I still remembered that i learnt to use a dunedin city map to look for science library.

At first, i didnt use the map and i kept calling my sister. After that, she was annoyed and ask me to pick up a map outside the university bookshop instead.

And so, i started to explore the map on my own. I find it was fresh and interesting experience.

In Bangkok, same thing happened on me.

I had my 1st experience of using their railway map and tried their BTS

Trust me ! Their trains are far more better than our LRT and KTM and much more advance :)

It was fun asking the local people about the busy city especially the Thailand students, they are really friendly and helpful !

For Melbourne, i worked very hard in planning the a week trip.

It was my 1st time flying alone and i have to manage for my trip very well financially.

I am quite disappointed cos i spent the last few hundreds on A/X ..Sigh

Should have spend it on mornington peninsula and billy train trip or something else...

I learnt my lesson. Never ever spend the money on shopping before finishing exploring the city.

Such a waste ! :(

The trip was quite a failure afterall..haha..except the Great Ocean Road :) :) :)

Besides, i enjoyed talking to strangers in foreign countries

Learning new language, making friends around had became one of my interest when i travel ..hahaha

I would really love to have a solo trip to Europe and Tasmania Island....

I cant describe how enthusiasm of me for Aussie animals in words.

My wish is to swim with pink dolphins and hugging Tasmania Devils and not forgetting wombat , koala bear, kangaroo

I really love the word ' Tasmania' and i had been talking and thinking about it over and over again.

Ah-huh..no wonder i had remember the wrong date for CT SCAN !! :(
Luckily my parents didnt scold me cos they are quite busy with new house ..*sweat*
I feel so terribly sorry to myself.
I really really need to make some changes !
Should have focus ! FOCUS !

Tmr i m goin to skip class.

I m losing my interest in going to college lately since every lecturer is so honeymoon mood and doing nothing in the class.

Me too as well.

so what s the point of me driving 15 mins and waste my petrol to college?

I m so in holiday mood now :) :)

I ll just "sit and relax"

(eventually i hav to wake up earlier to help my parents T_T)

Annyeong !

chew~

Another Nervous Day !

Next week is a very important week becos.........................................
On Tues, i ll have my another CT Scan. God, please Blesss meeeee ! I would be very grateful ! :P
Next week will be my last week goin to college before final .... I m Soooooooooooooooooo excited !! :)

Two more weeks, i ll be moving no matter how since lawyer called.
We gotta move our ass from this old house ......
I m so excited to get out this housing estate.
So, people wont be gossiping about us anymore since they wont see us around that area after business hour....
Oh yeah !!!!!!!!

I ll be improving my skills in cooking and baking when i move house.
Oh yeahhhhhhhhhh !!!
I cant really express how excited m i in words..
Becos i m wayyy toooooooooooo excited...Teeehehehehe :P

Just found a business student , study business but don't know how to do business
I m so freaking piss off when she said we had profit without knowing the cost during our stupid malaysian studies assignment. Somemore she wanna sell the things cheaper without knowing the cost. OMG OMG !!
If u cant do business, how can u excel in ur studies, i wonder ??
OMG OMG OMG OMG !!!
Open your eyes, the world is so big !

New house :)

Thats your room..haven't paint yet hehe

This is the wet kitchen.told you, its quite small and the oven will be placed on far right of the picture.

Thts the stairs but not really done yet.. :)

That's the design for kitchen..very mother's taste right?? hahaha

This is the dry kitchen

The Truth :(

Trying to be perfect

Trying not to let you down

Honesty is honestly..

The hardest thing for me right now

........

Its easier than telling the truthhhhhhhhh

The truth- Kris Allen

No more hesitation !

I guess i have no more hesitations !!!
Great !!
I had plan really well for my 2011 :) :)

I would be taking World Issue subject and Chemistry next sem in order to get 75%
My goal is 75%
I can do it right ??!!

Sigh...but i have to give up harp class cos i have too many things to handle :(

After the last sem...i would be flying all the way to SEOUL !!!!

大韩民国, Here i comeeeee !!

I m goin NUTS

the worst assignment i ever had

Have a booth in cafeteria and promote Malaysia culture in the college

I hate that !

The point is i have to do this assignment with this very very immature kiddos who are still eating lollipop and dress up in tradisional clothes !

SOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooo EMBARASSING !!!!!

2 more weeks to go ...

Inhale ! Exhale...

I hope i can get through theseeee !!!

Dilemmassssssss

Oh my mummy God,

i m SERIOUSLY having a big dilemma....

I have only two weeks to think whether to take one more extra subject next sem.

Eventually i only have to take chemistry but i heard tht lecturer is quite dull.

They suggested me to take World Issue becos its really interesting and i can have more knowledge.

But but but

I have to pay extra 3K and i pretty phobia of ISU which is the essay assignment before ending the course.

I have literacy test next year.

I have to take IELTS.

I wanna learn harp.

but but ....

I would be very boring by attending chemistry only :( :(

Should i take world issue ????? :S

Oh! I m stuck with Families ISU assignment

which i have to do secondary report on mate selection and primary report and a VIDEO presentation !!!

for god's sack, this is the scariest moment of the semester !

I need a break. i need to STOP thinking !

Run chewlian Run

Guess what?!

Me is goin to run for Terry Fox Run for cancer.( i think i ll walk only)

The money that i donated will be proceed to cancer research.

Even my dad donated 50 bucks for cancer *proud proud*

Let's help them ! :)

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I miss my baby so much ... oh , my mp3 !! hopefully they dont reformat it !!

I have more than 800 songs lar !!!! :( :(

I miss you !! When are you coming back ?? :(

btw, there s a boy kissed on my cheek today !!

He s my favourite student, Ashton !!

He give me a hug everytime he sees me.( i requested...teeehehehe)

Oh..i feel so happy everytime he hugs me ! its like all my problems just gone !

He is just so lovely ! :)

i m obsess with Playful Kiss drama again!

Never meant to watch it...but nothing to watch while waiting for BONES.

Anyway, this kind of drama always give people some unrealistic dream. cheh...

too bad, i couldnt help it and so i watched it ...hahahahahahahahahahah

u know, i m always obsess with this stupid dramas..even till now, i m still liking Goong drama...hehe

Goodnight ! :)

Baby Seals in Ohau, Kaikoura NZ

"Victimized"

The word " CANCER" can be so intimidated.

Just heard another young girl is a victim of Evil Cancer !

She s my sis's fren.

She just started her dream to become a nurse and now she is diagnosed with Cancer .

I wish i could i help her.

She s way to young and now she has to give up her DREAM !

Heard that she is quite depress especially about falling hair !

I m so so so sorry for her.

I had gone through the same thing .

This is goin to be a painful journey for her .

I hope she ll stand up 2 Cancer .

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Not in the list

So sad when i am not in the list of potential graduate for CIMP......

I only have one subject left to go to be officially graduating from CIMP

sad sad sad

I enjoyed the course and i would definitely highly recommend to my younger friends...

eventually i m a bit regret for not taking all of the 3 subjects this sem so i can goyang kaki for the next 6 months...
too bad..my body still cant handle these stress yet !

2 subjects already make me feel so tired..

Just did my Unit Test for my families subject...

Romantic relationship was far more complex when u read the theories ..

Come on..men and women are so complicated

Luckily i m not going to be a psychologist.

Social science is crazy man !

I mean i like this subject but i wont take it as my future career.

I m just interested in food ...

U can tell from my size...lol

seriously need to keep some fit...

Even doc and nurses said i m way too "healthy" now...hahhaa..

I ll work hard on yoga !!

OOOOOoooooooooooooMMMmmmm :P

oh ! oh oh!

MY very Gorgeous 66L oven by ELectrolux

Proud to say that its Australian Made product !!

n n n n it has 8 functions of cooking !!

Just reached my home for few days !!!

Cant wait to use it !!

Its really huge which i think can roast the whole turkey...hehehehehe

SHe s mine !!

hmm..mayb i should give her a name !1

Oh, my baby oven !!!! :) :) Muackssss...

chew~~

better go to bed ..

Au revoir !

Whats you biggest achievement of 2010???

One day, me and my piano teacher talked about time passed really fast when i was having piano class.
N then my piano teacher have a questions :

" Hmm...what is my biggest achievement of 2010? "

She answered that her biggest achievement was to give birth to her baby girl which the process was so painful. She managed to overcome the fear and pain.

I told her my biggest achievement of 2010 was I won in conquering cancer which was the most evil disease in this world. I love the year of 2010. I felt so proud tht i managed to overcome the pain !!! Oh well, thanks to my lovely family and friends...

And i got the chance to fly alone to Melbourne and then to New Zealand which i had a lot of fun there ! I would love to do it again ! I enjoy the year of 2010 !! I learnt alot of things and i had become more and more confident in my life !

Now, WHAT 'S YOUR BIGGEST ACHIEVEMENT OF 2010 ?? :)

Angels VS Devils

Sometimes i really really really dont understand why the devils are always so likeable and sooo popular among the lecturers.

They pretend to be friendly and nice.

actually they are all bitches and bastards. wtf

I m so nice that all lecturers always have misunderstandings about me.

They always look so cute , they have so many friends ....

but they are evil !

No wonder good ppl always died so early. wtf

I know i know, i have prob in communication

I dont know how to socialize ..

teach me teach me !!

I hope there s a Socialization Guide Book for the Dummies in the bookstore.

People always tend to misunderstood the real me.

I AM NOT WEIRD !

I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO TALK TO YOU !!

Movie Marathon

I cant believe that i watched two movies in a go with my friend..
Eat Pray Love will be the best movie for me ..WEEE~~
Dont watch Charlie St Cloud, its the most common typical sad movie...wtf
I watched it becos we couldnt get ticket for The Switch... :(
Cant believe that cinema is still full of crowd on Thursday..LOL.

This is our group funeral obituary.I cant wait for the ceremony. Sometimes, i dont really wanna to be too strict to myself. I m goin to let go and back to 18 again and have fun with my classmates. i mean my social science classmates :) . I feel young again !! :) :)

HAve Fun !!

Just found out that i eventually have to teach dyslexia and autism student in Maths. Anyway, its a good chance for me to understand their world and help them !! :) :)

EAT PRAY LOVE

I would love to be Elizabeth Gilbert

Take a year off and Let myself go AGAIN !!

I would love to do it again !!

Next time i would want to travel Europe ALONE !!

ALL BY MYSELF !!!!!!!!!!!

Bonjour , PARIS !!

planning in progresssssssssss :P

btw, my social science lecturer asked us WHAT IS LOVE??

u know what?

LOVE is define as DESPERATE FEELING OF CONNECTING WITH SOMEONE !

speechlesssssssss ~~~

chew~

Intimacy VS Isolation

what Eric erikson said was right !!!

I m now having dilemma in Intimacy VS Isolation !!!

wtf wtf !!

Spicy Rice Cakes

Aiseh, never thought that Spicy Rice Cakes was so easy to cook.

Inspired by Taiwanese Food show!

Come on , it was just like cooking tom yum bihun which was my masterpiece ! :P

Well, i dont really like to eat oso, and i m not a fan of Kimchi, i m a fan of Spaggetti and SUSHI !! Teehehe..

Although i always like Korea like hell, but never like the food. :)

I m so-not in the mood to back to college.There are many things that i didnt do yet. Btw, its good that i spent my weekend in Strawberryland.....:)

Peace of mind . *inhale.exhale*

on the other hand, i m reading EAT . PRAY. LOVE . i really love the book . So cool to travel alone just like her !!! I would want to do so ! ONE DAY !! soon ! i mean really soon ! HAAHA

Can't believe that i have a month plus to have my final soon.I dare not think to get a good grade, at least i can meet the requirement for my ideal uni .Cant wait, cant wait to get out of Sunway !!!! One more subject to go !!! YEAH !!! I m ready !! :P

chew~~

GOODBYE HOLIDAY !

HALO, BUSY LIFE !

WHO I WAS BORN TO BE

When I was a child
I could see the wind in the trees
And I heard a song in the breeze
It was there, singing out my name

But I am not a girl
I have known the taste of defeat
And I've finally grown to believe
It will all came around again

And though I may not know the answers
I can finally say I am free
And if the questions led me here
Then I am who I was born to be

And so here am I
Open arms and ready to stand
I've got the world in my hands
And it feels like my turn to fly

Though I may not know the answers
I can finally say I am free
And if the questions led me here
Then I am who I was born to be

When I was a child
There were flowers that bloomed in the night
Unafraid to take in the light
Unashamed to have braved the dark

Though I may not know the answers
I can finally say I am free
And if the questions led me here
Then I am who I was born to be
I am who I was born to be

working like a BULL

my holidays make me work like a bull .

Been very very busy these raya holidays.

helping my parents in the shop .

it is now back to normal !

Weee~~

Still gotta work on tues and wed and fri before my boss hired new employee. :(

The best thing of holidays are that

I dont need to see those people that i dont wish to see.

I found peace. mind. soul !!

btw, hopefully this weekend i can get away from here. :P

Ahh...

Happy birthday to my old lady

she always my sister who listen to me all the time

thts her below, love singing k just like me :)

No matter what happen, she always remain cool and silent.

Cant believe that she turn 22nd today !!

Time flies.

Love u, susie.

U r older than me now !!!

Waiting for uuuuuuuuuuu

B.I.T.C.H

I dont really like to use swearing words UNLESS
people really really piss me off.

I m so envious of my friends, who don't need to work during holidays and can get plenty of money to spend.
okay, they are still 18.
When they asked me that i have my own car ??!!
I ll said its still my dad's car becos its his money, not mine.
And they said..no , its the same.
Young adolescent...still never know the real world
All they know is buying the best cell phone and spending their parents' money like no one business.

I want to fly ! i want to fly !1
Aeroplane is the best invention in this world.
Isn't it ???
HEHEHEH ~~

Poor me, gotta help my parents during holidays.
Never mind, i ll earn as much as i can these two weeks.
Huhuhu~~

btw, i hope the bitch in my coll wont get any friends in her future. She s the worst person i ever met.

chew~~

I guess i m crazy

I made a mistake

Even my fren treated me like this.

I took all the blame.

I like her to be my fren , just that...

Very hard to explain.

We have been friends for years,i feel she had changed.

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People comes and go.

I dont believe eternity love.

I m not the old me who used to think of prince charming and happily ever after's fairy tale anymore.

It makes me really hard to trust guys and i m looking down on Malaysian guys !

No offence !

Mayb there are still good guys existence.

HOHOHO !!

dont think there arent alot !

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3 more days to holiday

Tell me what should i do !!!!!

I Have plans in my head.

Cameron Highland?

Broga Hills ?

Taman Negara ?

Langkawi?

I wish i was in New Zealand again !

I miss all the foods !!

Well, still waiting for my sis to send me the FRENCH VANILLA HOT CHOC POWDER !!

WEEEEE~~~~~

btw, poor nz for having 7.2 level earthquake.

GOD BLESS YOU !!

I LOVE NEW ZEALAND !!

Boring Town

All i want is to get away from this boring town for few days during holidays larr...
I wanna go to beach .
Ohyes, i feel like goin back to Langkawi !!!
Anyone ?????

10 days of holidays,
and i m going to puke for seeing this stupid klang ppl !!
I mean the illiterate klang ppl !
They are so hateable
trust me !
I had been growing up here since i was born.
I already saw their true colours.

Savoury Pancakes

I wonder if u guys notice that asian people prefer savoury than sweet food.

I m asian, so i m one of the ppl who love savoury than sweet food

I remember my friend brought me to a famour pancake shop in melbourne.

Very famous , they are called The Pancake Parlour.

btw, very expensive.

I made my pancake once again .

My mum said that my pancakes tasted like mi hun kuih （面粉糕）

Oh my mummy God !!

Never mind'

As long as i think my pancakes are tasty...(even my sis said so ..huhu~~)

Somehow

I believe that

MY PANCAKES WILL BE BETTER THAN THE PANCAKE PARLOUR and CAPERS in the FUTURE !!!! I LL MONOPOLY THE PANCAKES WORLD soooonnnnnn !!

Teehehehe...

What the hell m i doing these days ??!!

I still haven touch my assignments yet !! LOL..

chew~~

BONES

U have no idea how obsess m i to Bones series

Totally love Bonesss ! She is so so so cute.

Anyway, non of my friends watch it.i wonder why.

hehe..thanks to my elder sis who introduced this incredibly awesome series.

From the 1st season till now, i never miss out any single episode. I wish i could meet the cast personally !!! Weee~~~

Well, the world is so so small, Just found out that my previous secondary schoolmates working in Enopi tooo but we are not working on the same day. The world is seriously too small ..teeheheheh

HAPPY HOLIDAY !!!

chew~~~

I cant be BOTHER

too many emo posts down there.....

LOL

I cant be bother to get angry for everything.

Been having a nice weekend with mum n dad....

Since i m the onli one who are at home :)

I feel so good not to see those teammates tht made me exploded these 3 days.

I m goin to hospital tmr ,again after 3 months.

I feel so nervous until i have diarrhea for 3 times and stomach upset.

YEah, goin to take my Pet Scan result that was taken 3 months ago...

I happy too cos i m goin to visit Kak Yati, my very favourite nurse. Hope she is doing well while having baby :)

hmm..planning to bake Vegetarian Savoury Scones.

Yum yum yummy !! *love love*

..............

Dont take me for granted ...

I would gone very very very very very very MAD !

Like the Mad Hatter .

I meant it, SERIOUSLY ...

Earth VS outer space

Well, i think i m the alien now.
People dont think the same thing as i do.

Becos i m older,
i know more things.
Young teenagers *shake head shake head*

Never punctual
Never spare some thoughts for others.
Wasting my time n energy only. Damn it !!

Brainless teenager !

I have this classmate who are huge and has the most outstanding voice in my malaysian studies.

Sometimes i choose to remain silent in the class becos she is too outstanding.

She never think before she speak or i shall say she never use her brain before she speak !

When i chose a song for my assignments, she saw it , n she said : "I planned to use this song weh, wat the F !! "

Very offensive lo !

I feel like slapping her when i see her in the class !!

Whatever !

I wont add her in my FB

Dont think she wanted too !

Cos i always dont like to talk to her and i show my anger face one !

Somehow,

I dont wanna live in Malaysia !

Its a place which are not belongs to me .

If i m staying , i wish to own a condo in Bangsar !

How much i love Bangsar ya know !

A Horse is a horse, of course of course :)

Aww, its been a very hectic week for me !

I was supposed to finish my assignments earlier but my group member was being very proscrastinate

Neither I like to do things last minutes nor wasting my precious time lar !!

I was so pissed off with that BITCH who yelled and complained that she s busy all the time

WTF !

as if i m not busy lor !

She dont help a lot as well !

I did all the work n she got all the marks .

wtf wtf wtf .....................

Sad case

:(

Oh well, i dreamt that i went to New Zealand again

I went to a beach that was so so so beautiful like HEAVEN !!

Oh yes, i m looking for

PEACE OF MIND !!

I really miss a lot of things in New Zealand ...

hmmm...Hows was my duckies doing in Botanical Garden ??!!

I miss them so badly !!

chew~~~

BOOST

I think i m obsessed with Boost since i came back from Melbourne and since Boost are opening more juice bars in Klang Valley .

I was so obsessed with Boost that i need to drink smoothies every week like drug addicts.

So sad that Boost Juice Bar are not open in college

If they are, i ll be the 1st one in the queue every single day

Teeehehehehe

I m now a BOOST JUICE ADDICT !! :P

I hope Subway and Boost will be opening in college

Becos i m a vegetarian and coll food are so-not-delicious and unhealthy :(

I NEED BOOST so i can stay focus all the time in malaysian studies class.

I need SUBWAY in coll to fill in my empty tummy. :) :)

i have test for malaysian studies tmr.

YEt, i m still here bullshitting !

I dont like malaysian studies and i have no idea about it :(

chew ~~~~~

I RUN...

What my sis said was right .

LOOK AND WALK AWAY !!

Friends come , friends go.

So, i wont expect so much anymore.

I ll LOOK AND WALK AWAY !

Hehehehe

Now i m happy again !

Gonna do my families assignments !

Boooo~~~ :(

I think i screwed up my 1st unit test.

I tried my best.

Let see how it goes tmr then !

FINGER CROSS

chew~~

Seoul of Asia

I am very very excited that i ll be away for South Korea for 10 days with my fren next year June.

Long way to go ..but i cant wait to fly..

i made this crazy decision without my parents' acknowledgement !! uh-oh :S

woohoo...i m looking forward to explore the country by myself !!!

I have to learn the language as fast as i can :)

Jeju island, teddy bear museum.,dong dae mun..etc

CANT WAIT NOW !!! :)

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Monster Sister

My monster sis is coming back ! U wont know how excited am i ! She s the one who always make me happy, sad , and angry . Yeah..she s my favourite biatch !!! HEHEHE..

4 days to go !

I love you , monster !!

Whats wrong with me !

I miss Kiwiland again !

I really really want go back there !!

Awww..must be something wrong with me.

I had been thinking too much lately.

I feel very very insecure !! :'(

I m struggling .

I m afraid that i might become someone that are not me anymore.

No No No .

This must not happen.

I must be myself !

I kenot influence by other ppl.

No No.

There are just so many weird ppl around me.

Why ppl always think i m weird? i wonder

I had tried my best to be friendly but still..

Sigh......

No offence.

Sometimes the word "FRIENDS" really pissed me off !

Tell me what to do so i can gain back my faith to u !!

Should i ??

I was wondering whether to quit Kumon or not?
Although the job is quite tiring, but i feel content (sometimes)
N the kids..haiss..
n money... SIGH SIGH SIGH x100

Since my new car arrived , i m always worry about the next petrol and the touch n go money.
SIgh sigh sigh

Working in Kumon is quite strict and i always need to be chop chop since the students are keep increasing but the salary damn low.
which i could earn more in E.nopi..
How ??

Now i have to work 4 days a week.
so so so pathetic.
I dont wanna burden my parents.
I dont wanna let them think that i m always still so dependent on them

Very hard decision.
Unless Kumon raise my pay.. $$$$$$$$$$$$$
I LL DEFINITELY SAY YES !! hehehe

Pinky Girl

My friend in my families class, Nitha said i am too old to have pink colour things.

Well, pink had always been my favourite colour since i was young.

I think pink really make me happy all the time .

I wonder what s wrong with having pink stuff at the age of 21. LOL...

And then my Maldives friend Sharfa, is not quiet at all

she s very active, hyper indeed ..HAHAHA

She like to pinch my fleshy cheek .

And then she said i m cute..

Because i have all the pink stuffs on my table in the class

From my bottle, to my binder file and my pencil box...they are all PINK(including my laptop and my new camera also very PINKISH !! ..teehehehe)

I was totally speechless.

Now i m bully by this 16 yo Sharfa...sobs sobs..

She is way too mature man !

She always ask me to visit her country, i always say i want to go Mongolia or South Korea instead. HAHA~~

Ah ~~

Got my 2nd birthday present from Susie

All the way from PArissssss !

Love the postcard she sent to me and the minimised Eiffel Tower of course !!!

I was so speechless and touched and surprised of course !!

Merci Beaucop !!

(Guess i m getting better in French now..huhu~~)

I need to bake so so so freaking bad..

Dear Mum, where is my super big oven ?????

SHe promised that she would buy one but guess i ll only get to use it until we move to new house.

My hands are so itchy now.

I wanna do BAKING !!!!!!!!!

I WANNA DO BAKING !!!!

Au revoir.

Pinky girl...HA HA HA

Single

Being single is so so so good !
I m so so envious of my aunt who can go travel whenever she want.
She dont hav family , she dont have to take care of children !
She and my bro is on the way to EUROPE !!!!!!
Jealous ! Damn jealous !
n
I m stuck here facing those retards in coll every single day !

On the other hand, my DA JIE had been arrived in Paris last week. she s gonna spent her whole month in EUROPE toooooo !!
Aiseh ! hmm.. i m wondering mayb she might bump into Susie in Paris. Or mayb Susie might saw her around ...hehehe

Europe ...oh ...Europe
I can imagine yummy-licious french pastries
ermm,...rude french !
Burberry tote bags !!! Chanel ! Gucci !
Buckingham Palace !!!
Venice's Gondolass...
Barcelona ....etc etc

btw, i still havent found any new fren yet.
ok, sounds exaggerating
my classmates in msian studies are totally stubborn and they r just like 3-yo kids. *shake my head*
hmm..i enjoy family subject. At least the Maldives girl beside me are friendly and quiet. she is a nice girl. And the Myanmar guy who always make us laugh when he open the door...hahaha...And we have 6 koreans in our class but are hardly approachable...
Mayb it was just the second week and we are not close enough ..so so so
I need time .
I ll try to smile :)

Avatar VS Oh nei nei

It was my second day working in E.nopi. Working in E.nopi was about relaxing and having fun with Maths. So i have a student called Jin Xuen who are only 4 years old who are really adorable. This is our conversation.

ME : JX, JX ah...hurry up finish ur classwork. If not , OH NEI NEI will come and catch you.
JX : later i call BOTAK to beat OH NEI NEI up . (i was wondering who is botak ) (mumbling non-stop)
Later , i listened carefully .
JX : I want to call AVATAR to fight with OH NEI NEI...

This time i asked him to tell what is the colour of AVATAR. He can tell me that AVATAR is Blue colour. I bursted into laugh...HAHAHA..
The kids nowadays really update. Even a 4-yo can tell me what is AVATAR !!! hahahaha

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My new resolutions :

1) Sign up for Gym asap

2) Be friendly in the class

3) Lose weight

4) Save money

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Btw, got my car KEY already !!! Aiseh , no GOLD KEY one....I m happy that i have a car to make me move around KL so conveniently . I LOVE MY CAR !!!!

gtg to do my families assignments .

TADA !

Commencement

My lovely sister will be coming back in a month ...huhu~~
Looking forward for my souvenirs from Europe. Wee~~~

Working made me feel better, much more better
Understanding kids are much more easier n directly than adults .
THeir mind are simple.
They wont harm you , they wont betray you .

I hate people who keep zero promise ( directly translate from "Janji kosong")
I had bad days...a lot of bad daysssssssssss
Now i just want to keep myself busy n busy n busy UNTIL
I forget about me .

:(

Fooled..

I was treated like a fool...........

:'(

Happy birthday !

Happy Birthday to myself .

:)

I wish to be getting healthier and healthier

Hi and Bye

My schedule would be quite tight when i return to college. T_T
I actually had quit the Kumon job but i feel so pity to my boss.
So ..........
I decided to help her for July she is shortage of manpower :)

On the other hand, i m goin to start my new job in E.nopi next Tuesday.
I went for training and it was a very good experience for me :)

I did said i hate kids
but actually i still love them
They are just like my "sons and daughters" n i m just like their "mother"
to be honest , i really enjoy guiding them in the maths and talking to them :D
i would probably miss my handsome, naughty Derrick and Lil Ke Xin and not forgetting the mischievous Hannah . OH, and Miss lil smart Yu Syuen .
Teehehehe

I can cook
I can bake
I can do housechores
I can take care of kids..
I can teach the kids.
Hmmm...m i qualify enough to be a housewife and a good mother ??? :P
oh yea, i m ready just that my prince haven come yet.
I wonder which of the corner of earth are HIM ?? hehehe

i would be working almost every night except Wednesday
Do Yoga in the morning and piano class btw or u might be seeing me in my parents' shop :)
Hmmm...still considering joining CHI fitness once i accumulate enough $$
cos my class start at 12 n end at 4 .
What a weird timetable.
I dont mind.
At least , i can enjoy my morning tea ...hehehehe

Dont say i m very very free okay?
I m a very very very very BUSY person

B.Y.E

Insecure

Please make me believe in you !
I feel very insecure.

n

i m slowly losing faith in you .

Everybody's changing and i dont feel the same

Oh yeah !
I m goin back to coll by next thursday
I want to faster finish it n go to uni...huhu ~~
i ll work harder for the sake of cancer patients ! I promise!
Please dont give up on me ! I m working it out ! okay ??

my birthday celebration already cancelled .
will change to another day . Sigh Sigh..
its wrong timing n most of the frens are so so so busy eh :(

:(
chaoz
chewlian

independent day

Pet scan was done !!
Thanks GOD !! :)

now i ll be waiting the appealing result from the ministry in Canada
hopefully they let me continue rather than starting all over again ! *finger crossed*

OH well, i just created an event on fb .
it was for my and shinyee birthday celebration
i had an instinct that less ppl will come since most of them havin final

Me n shinyee planned to have simple celebration rather a big party
but i have my own dress code : casual dress and high heels...huhu ~~

Spotted a pale pink super high heels from the brand i really love.
Should i buy ???
but i m really in love ..madly in love
just how i m in love with my KEDS which i had been talking about all the time !!

我不想念

某个城 某条街 某一条小巷
某一个晚上 某阁楼 微微灯光
某个人 默默关上 某心房 某扇窗
跟没有人 说晚安

夜 从前从来没这么长
床 荒凉的就像没有边疆
失眠 是枕头之上无尽的流浪
天 永远不亮

我不想念 不想念 他模样
我不想念 他肩膀 轻拥著我肩膀
我不想念 他吻著我脸庞
把永远说成一颗糖

某空港 某车站 某个下一站
某一扇车窗 某风景 唤醒惆怅
某南方 摇摇晃晃 某海洋 某艘船
谁没妄想 有天堂

当 人活成了一棵仙人掌
掌 心的泪却还是滚烫
每当 抚摸那些天真致命伤
恨 不能健忘


我不想念 不想念 那时光
那些快乐 和悲伤 却总在我身旁
我只愿长夜将尽天快亮
让想念的歌不再唱

让想念的歌不再伤
让想念的歌不要再唱