Am i being fooled again ??!!

Am i being fooled like a stupid fella again ??!!
Am i doing the right thing ??
Why u all have to treat me like this !!!!

Am i so hateful ??

why u all ignore me ??!!!

Tell me what to do pls...

i love Derrick so much

but when he come to class, i cant smile to him because

HE IS SO SO SO naughty

But

he is adorable and handsome!

P/s: I MISS "SAN REN" !!!

Apology

*updated*

Alright, i m being too aggressive over here. Okay , I apologize. Mayb chewling is true, it was my karma. That's why i m bully by other people !! Grrrr....

No doubt that i dont trust people, even a little kid. Dont expect me to trust u 100% , cos i m watching uuuuu all the time . I m sick of this non-civilized society !! Whatever..i dont care eeeeeee !! I dont care eeeee !!

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On the other hand, i just found out tht the back of my neck became darker and darker due to the high radiation of radiotherapy... lol..no wonder they are so itchy and a bit pain !! Gahhh !! So ugly

Another thing : MY hair. So bushy that i have no idea how to deal with it.. And so curly. =.=ll

And ppl said i m a terribly stubborn and bad person becos of my curly hair...WTH !! i dont believe lar... hahaha..if u do, let me know !

P/s : i goin to get my own car soon(hopefully) !! Woohoo !!!

I was forced to be like this

i was never a selfish person.
but i was forced to be the most selfish person here.

He, my uncle who used our car like no one business for two weeks
He blamed my bro for not getting a new car for him !!!
he think he is the KING in this world
WHAT THE FUCK !!

I HATE HIM !!!
I need the car to go to work , yoga class ...etc...
All he know is scolding ppl , put his anger on others. WTF !!!
YOu bloody asshole !!!!!!!!!!

I was trying to bear with it but this is so so so UNBEARABLE !!!
and i got scolded by my dad.

Why my whole life have to listen to others and tolerate with the person i shouldnt be ??!!

I want this !

AWww...another studded heels tht i adore so much !!!

ooppss, seriously so obsessed with STUDDED thingy :S

:P

Transformation

Despite of my ugly hairstyle, i need some clothes to make me look younger.

Tada !!! i m transforming into this :P

I got the top from Topshop which i saw it right before i paid for the black one.It was hidden behind other colours...lol... u know, black is too plain, i seriously need something creative..And i got the grey bow belt from Charles & Keith which i adored a lot a lot lar... In addition , a pair of Grey tight by Dorothy Perkins. Total was below 200 bucks . wise enough ?? keke...

oh yea, before i sign out, the back of top is quite sexy lar ..teehehehe

Do u like tis style ?? :P

I love itttttttttttttttttttttt :)

P/s : currently liking GREY and BROWN colour !! *wink*

Let's Break up

Currently i m listening to Kim Tae Woo and Lee Seung Gi 's songs....
I never know them before until i listened to their drama soundtracks and watched them in drama .

I m truly in love with Lee Seung Gi's voice...He is such a great singer !! for Kim tae woo, he is a very talented singer and can change his songs creatively . I like one of his new song, Love Rain. Very happy and comfortable :P

This is one of Lee Seung Gi 's 4th album songs which i like it alot :) and his previous single !!

I have that feeling

Yeppi yeppi burfday , ChingMun !! Finally you re 20 !!

Last week, we had a simple celebration for Chingmun in Bubba Gump, sunway pyramid . The food were acceptable but who cares !! most importantly , we get to have reunion with friends !!

Well, i gave her a poodle which i sewed it with my fleth cloth. not really nice as u imagine in your mind. But i ve tried my best ! Hope you like it ! =)

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On the other hand, i had managed to complete my 20 times of radiotherapy !

Life's tough but i have to be even stronger !

I m happy yet worry.

I have a weird feeling.

I scare i would have to undergo extra therapies .

I m phobia of branula (a type of needle).

I m afraid that when i recover , i would get sick again .

I m afraid i might not able to leave m'sia *docs are always dragging my things*

I m afraid that i m not ready to face the world .

WTH m i thinking ??!!!!

I have no idea at all !!!

So confusing

I have a simple dream yet so complicated !!!!

No way ! I must think like Forrest Gump !!

RUN FORREST RUN !

RUN CHEWLIAN RUN !!

S.O.S i need to repackage myself

When i saw back my old photos back to a year ago,
N look in the mirror and saw the me in it

I realised that i SERIOUSLY need to repackage myself
No more shining on my face
More moles which i have no idea how come it ll happen after i got sick
New grown hair which i m pretty obsess atm becos they are weird and very very very curly larrr....

Tell Me what to do larrrr...

I m 21 but not officially yet..hehe

SO,

I want to learn make up
I want to do bridging on my teeth (for whitening )
I want to laser off the god damn moles on my face
I want my hairstyle back which i had it when i took family photos (i onli get to enjoy tht hairstyle for 24 hours before it fell :( )
i wanna dress even more feminine .. (change my whole clothes in my closet)

tae-soh...sound so impossible ..
BeTTEr BE Myself la... gahhh !!! :P

chewlian

Smile, you

Weee~~~Another lovey-dovey love story that makes me happy all the time.After watching Iris which was quite a "strict" drama , i tried on new comedy drama by SBS..

U might think that the drama could be very childish..

but they are funny enough to make you laugh

especially the mother and the father..omgoodness..

can never grow up and got into troubless all the time...aigoo !!

HAHAha...

The young couples(Lee Min Jung and Jung Kyung Ho) oso really cute...both of them are so funny when they first met.but they look lovely and romantic in the drama lar... Although the guy are not so good looking, he is Mr. Good(character in the drama) which was way too ideal for me. where can find such a fillial , romantic, and considerate guy in this world ?? I like this kind of guy, if u see him, tell me , okay?? :P. I started to like Lee min Jung , the 1st time i saw her acting was in boys over flower . She was really brave to make herself really ugly in this drama. i like her lar...BRavo...this drama wouldnt be perfect without two of them !!!

The story is about a rich family got bankrupt and have to live under one roof with driver's family.

hehe..and both family have to live together and fight together...hahaha.

i like Harabuji the most..i think he is the greatest grandfather in the world..but this kind of ah gong din exist in my family, sigh....

i think the story makes me remind of Brilliant legacy though..haha

Anyway, its a must watch drama if u r boring , sad or thinking of your family who live apart with you.

They are warm enough to make your day

*caution* the drama is 46 episodes long*

Teehehehehe

ahem ..ahem..future potential housewife

tada ~~

show you what i've done and learnt for the whole year of 2009

as you know, i m not studying right now .So, i spend most of my time on TV, fb-ing, PPS-ing,handicrafts,baking and cooking .

Woohoo..at least i had achieved something ...hehe

i made organic cupcakes on Parents' Day. I made Organic waffles for myself. I had made Organic Molasses Cookies which i think its time to sell it to anyone who are health conscious.Call me if u wanna order ...HEHe..they are 100% organic. i invited my besties to come my house and cook dinner for ourselves. its worth it than eating outside lar..healthy and delicious . yummy !! Can we cook again this year ??? :Pwestern food this time ..hahaha

Well, i m trying to invent more and more recipes since i m goin to do some business in the future soon. And i m keen to help other ppl who are sick becos i know how they feel :) . hehehe..

MUMMy !!Buy me an electric mixer and oven plsssss...and i wanna a big kitchen in new houseee !!!! :P..keke..so greedy lar me ..haha

I also had learnt sewing. i think tis is the best way for me if i need a peace of mind. When i m alone in my room or i feel very uncomfortable and confused, i ll take out my needle and start sewing until i feel comfortable. When i m sewing, i dont think of anythin, i ll just concentrate on sewing until i finish it :) .Mayb u can try this idea. i sew mostly for my frens .act they are very useful, u can tie it on your hair with rubber band la, or use as the cellphone hanger, key chain, or pin them on ur shirt or bags..Useful right?? hehe....My proudest masterpiece are my parents' burfday present which there is the word" Amitabha" sewed on it. When i was sewing my parents' present that time, i couldnt really sewed it neatly, but when i keep sewing and sewing, i got the concept..Thanks God...and now i just need to improve myself...hehehe

P/s : 7 times of therapies to go !!! be tough!!

P/s 2 : for susie, God bless you for passing in your exam with flying colours . make sure u wear thicker and dont get cold . Love you :P

It wasnt too bad after all

photo grabbed from weilun's fb :P

(the photos totally look like the postcards).. I love the photos !!! :)

At the moment,

I dont wanna do anything
I dont wanna hear anything
I m tired.
I want to be selfish for 24 hours.
I dont feel like thinking for others becos they never appreciate what i've done


At the moment,

I want to go to the beach.
I dont wanna think anything
I just wanna sit quietly and feel the breeze of the beach
I just wanna feel the fresh air.

I wanna go to a place
Where there is no Jealousy, where there are no people will talk about me, think about me , insult me, harrass me..
haha..wont think will have this kind of place except HEAVEN..Duh !!!
if there is this kind of place, life could be far more peaceful okay ??

p/s: doc, will u pls let me go , plssssssssssssssssssssss??

when Canon meet Canon :P

For you, CHEWLING ...teeeheheh
1st of all, thanks for letting me to use your new DSLR...Muackss..lup you the most lar :p

well, since you couldnt see your DSLR in real one, i captured it with my Canon camera..

Thats why i said "WHEN CANON MEET CANON" ...hahAHa

sideview :)

Free User's guide !! you dont have to go to class liao..hahaha

OH, there is something for you !! HAHA...dont laugh :P i know i m funny especially my new grown hair :(..its so dark and curly..suddenly i felt my new grown hair look like f4 ,Gun Jun Pyo one ..Duh !!!

P/s : Goodbye, tasmanian devil ! I tunggu you pulang and bring you makan SUSHI.....Teeehehee..i know its goin to be hard for you and me.you have to be strong , so do me ! JiaYou !

P/s 2 : Sobsss...i was poked for four times with needles by nurse just to get a blood test ! :'(

I flew to South Korea !!

*ooppsie , grammar error . It was suppose to be "flew" not "flied"....Duh !! need more practice d..haha*

Ohyea, spent my last few hours of 2009 in Korea..
yipeee, Thanks to KBS world , i got to watch KBS tv drama awards liveeeeeee !! woohoo
i dont understand act since it was live and without subtitle, but but but i got to see my fav actors and actresses !!

In KBS tv drama awards, lee Byung hun got Daeksang and with Kim Tae Hee , they got Best couple award :)
well, for SBS awards, i kenot watch cos no SBS channel at home..aiks...wat i got was Han Hyo Joo and Lee Seung Gi got the Best couple...yeah yeah !!!!

Happy New Year in Korea and Malaysia !!
Lol...me and shinyee texting each other when Korea had their new year which was an hour earlier than us...hahahhaha
After an hour, we sat "spaceship" back to Malaysia and celebrate New Year...Muahahaha...
That was very funny !! hahaha...

Anyway, i m happy to listen Baek Ji young - dont forget live from KBS which was considered the last song for me at 2009..... Aku suka....i like the song so so so much ! it is my message tone lar...hahaha..so proud to have that song ...keke

P/s : 12 times of therapies to go !! Merdeka !!!