left or right? up or down? yes or no?

meet Missy Pink Dolphin...ooopss..sorry, been hiding you for so long in the drawer..teehehehehehe.

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i have a hard decision to make which might ruin my future ....i had my radiology appt and my doc told me that they have to "kill off" the gland near my arm. the effect is i have 50% of the risk that both of my hands would swell twice bigger than my current one. The prob is if this happen,i have to live with it forever . T_T..i dont wanna live with two big elephant hands !! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! NEVER !!!

This is my last stage of treatment and God is still playing with me . No, i cant handle this. i m so young...YOU cant do this to me !!! everytime i went to hospital sure got surprises waiting for me. I meant bad surprise. Tell me what to do , PLEASE !!

P/s: docs are still discussing whether to kill of not kill the gland.*finger crossed*for my future, please help me !

I M GONNA GETCHA GOOD !

Busy busy busy !!

Why my life is still busy although i m havin holiday ??!!

I have so many unfinished things to do ...:S..i m goin crazy soon !!
Interview on Friday in Ling Montessori..

Lol...the kindergarten is less than 500m away my house..

guess i can ride my bicycle to kindergarten...hehe..

hope theywill hire me *finger crossed**NERVOUS*

Havin radiology appt by next Tuesday !

back to General hospital KL where i first admitted last year for biopsy surgery!

God ! i hate tht place ..so complicated and old and dirty... =.=and i dont even how radiotherapy work..

NO IDEA AT ALL !! T_T

Well, very happy that i had plan for my holiday life till July 2010

Goin back to coll by July since degree oso start by July... hehe..i know i m lazy but i need to be mentally prepare lar :

Nov- this month would be a lil busy though.

-radiotherapy

-Kumon job every Mon & Thurs

Dec -Mayb still doin radiotherapy

- Bangkok shopping trip (hopefully i dont hav to cancel the trip )

Jan till Mac - working and working and working :P

April - Goodbye Malaysia !!!

Just bought a new camera ..

Din take many photos though cos not goin anywhere till DEC !! woohoo...

but i did attempt to take some pictures from my mom's "lil garden"...hehe

I love takin photos by using digital macro now..the outcome look like DSLR...lol

okay..need to practice more on photography jor....i need a teacher !!! :S

i know the photos dont look pro ..okay ?? these are just part of my practices ..

haha...

I ll practice harder ! Gambateh !!

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On the other hand, i found something very sweet on my notice board

Leen and Yee secretly put a sticky note..

I found it like weeks ago but i cant capture it clearly with my phone ..

So, with my Canon IXUS 110

I got this !

THank you very much for the sticky note..

well, so speechless about this cos i never expect u guys will do such a sweet things..hehehe

no offence, right??haha :P

honestly, i dont know what should i do to repay u guys...u guys really take care of me alot whether i m in ward or out-ward..THank you !!

dont worry ! I had threw away all those emo sticky notes..hehhe..

its final exam season now...I hope u guys can pass ur final with flying colours

Live life.Love life.

Muacksss!

-chewlian-

aku multi-tasker

When i was cleaning my shoes in the cupboard,

i realised that both of these ballerinas are very special

Becos each pair of ballerinas were gifted by two very special person in my life

Mom & Dad

*Sorry for abandoning the black ballerina for like a year++ =.=llll *guilty*

Thank you for accompany me along my sicky journey.

I am very sorry for my obstreperous-ness.

Sorry if i m disobedient

I m sorry for raising my voice lately without understand the whole situation

I m sorry for forgetting how hard that both of you sending me up and down the hospital and brought healthy food when i was in the ward.

I m sorry for my hot- tempered

I know i m not a perfect person

BUT

I ll try harder and harder and harder and harder to improve myself.

I PROMISE.

Please forgive me ! :)

Love you,

-chewlian-

Organic Molasses Cookies

Woohoo ! I m very excited that my second attempt on my molasses cookies was a success :)

this time i m using organic unbleached flour instead of wheat flour .

The outcome was very good.

The cookies are much more smoother than last time and less sweeter cos this time i just put a lil bit (mayb 2-3 teaspoons) of confectioner sugar.

I learnt how to make cookies with flower shape....Teehehehe...

isnt that great ??!!

recipe :

1 1/2 cup of unbleached flour

1 organic egg

1/2 teaspoon of baking powder

1/2 teaspoon of salt

2-3teaspoon of sugar

1 cup of molasses ( depends)

hmmm....i guess i can remember the recipe now... :P if you wanna try, let me know , i ll teach you :P

Molasses is a kind of liquid dark sugar which are high in potassium and calcium

for those who have anemia should try to drink molasses avday :)

they are really effective in red blood cell production ! TRUST ME !! :P

on the other hand, i m very grateful that i can use my time very wisely

i had tried to make muffins and cupcakes , i had tried to make some handicrafts by using fleth cloth...

errr...i think i should try to do a card and learn korean language now !! :)

Aww...i wanna learn so so so many things now ! =.=lll

anyway, me busy looking for jobs . hopefully i can find a teaching job in chinese primary school T_T...

i seriously need to save money for my upcomin trip cos

I AM 20 years old..i dont wanna depend on my parents always !!

Wish me luck!

Love you !

x0x0

-chewlian-

Everybody have stories to tell,but not me =(

I m currently very very very very into IRIS korean drama by Lee Byung Heon and Kim Tae Hee. Yipee...well

FYI,

Kim Tae Hee is one of my top 3 fav actress in my fav list...Ekekekek*evil grin*. I really really like her cos she always look so pretty and elegant XD.Awww..isnt she pretty !!!!!!!! :)

As you know , i m always watching korean drama...but to let you know, this is a very completely diff korean dramas.those who never like would definitely fell in love with it. Its all about assassination and they are very kan cheong man !!! :P

And and and Lee Byung heon really look hot and man in the drama....Awww..love him !! its really cute when both of the couple flirted with each other in the office....lolx...hahahah

this song had been my fav song since last week !! Aww..Love it !! :)

L.O.L

My fav student in Kumon , Natassha came to me when she did half of her classwork

Natassha : Teacher ~~~ , i wanna call daddy?
me : Why ?
Natassha: Becos i m hungry ....*evil grin*
me: Do u wanna go back ? if u wanna go home and eat, u have to finish ur classwork, dear. :)

she went back to her seat and continued her classwork...
After 5 mins......

Natassha : TEACHER ~~~~~~~
me : What do u want?
Natassha : Sleepy...(not really happy liao)
me: U still have to finish your work 1st lar ( i smiled) . U can eat and sleep later on if u manage to finish your classwork...

Then she started to use another trick : CRY !!!
omg....
Luckily , she managed to finished all her classwork and correction by the help of Mrs Lau....phew !! *sweat* At least , she smiled back again later on :)
So hard to handles tis lil tricky kid. =.=lll

Anyway, she made me feel delighted tonight !
Goodnight !!! huggies !!
Sweet dreams
-chewlian-

If i wrote a note to God

currently very into this song : Note to God by Charice Pempengco
I love her voice so so much....
She is just like the second Celine Dion.
I just listened her duet with Celine Dion (Because You Loved Me) when CD was having concert in Madison Square Garden last year....
Her singing touched me :)...
its a must listen song ya know ! :P

Well, me dont really wanna communicate with anyone lately...
I m 85% recover from my disease
i m happy and i m not at the same time...
The moment i knew my Pet scan result was negative, i was jumping in joyness
after awhile, i felt very confused...
Because i dont know wat should i do now

I am not ready for coll yet...

I m afraid of how ppl think of me

I felt discriminated by the society..

I felt i m far left behind than you guys.

I m afraid i might be sick again in 5 years time

I felt weird for my life. (current)

I m very scare to take the 1st step to start off everything from zero

I m afraid that history might happen againn !

i m afraid i cant cope with my studies.

I.....have so many probs arouse in my mind now...

U have no idea how much i ve been through...

and how m i goin to start off with my new life from the zero..

I m so desperate for a peace of mind.....
Tell me what should i do now ??

If I wrote a note to God

I would speak what's in my soul

I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away

For love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God

I'd pour my heart out on each page

I'd ask for war to end

and for peace to mend this world

I'd sayI'd sayI'd say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, cause love is overdue

And it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

I'd say please help us find a way

End all the bitterness, put some tendernessin our hearts

I'd sayI'd sayI'd say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, cause love is overdue

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help from you

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

Cause it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

NoNoWe can't do it on our own

SoSo(Give us the strength to make it throughHelp us find love, cause love is overdue)

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help

Grant us the faith to carry on

Hope when it seems all hope is gone

Cause it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

NoNo(No)

We can't do it on our own

(So)So

If I wrote a note to God

NOte to God- Charice Pempengco