Hate that i Like-D U

................................I m not happy because i cant stop thinking T_T

Anyone?

HUG ME , PLEASE !!!!!!!!!!!

I m depressed, i m not

See, i ll think nonsensely when i m alone

I promise myself not to think so much..

I m depressed, i m not

yes?

no?

yes?

no?

=.=lll

i should have prepare to accept the fact that goin to be reveal like next week?

I m scare...terribly scare ....

i m just too free and boring...

Think positive

THink positive

THINK POSITIVE, baybeh !! :)

You ll never understand me, NEVER !

*at least i m happy now :) Dont worry of me ! *WINK*

一个我像不会累 一直往前

一个我动弹不得 伤心欲绝

我不确定几个我 住在心里面

偶尔像敌人 偶尔像姊妹

一个我在网路上 朋友一堆

一个我在房间里 独自面对

灰色的音乐 塞满黑夜

High的想麻醉

好让翻搅的胃 安静一点

忘了全世界

分裂前的热泪 分裂后的冷眼

越爱谁 越防备 像只脆弱的刺猬

分裂中的心碎 分裂后的假面

不快乐 不伤悲 情绪埋藏成了地雷 等待爆裂

一个我相信用心 会被感觉

一个我大喊真心 会被欺骗

开始的热烈 不停奉献 后来剩决裂

谎言吞噬了心 带来刺痛 撕裂的蜕变

分裂前的热泪 分裂后的冷眼

越爱谁 越防备 像只脆弱的刺猬

分裂中的心碎 分裂后的假面

不快乐 不伤悲 情绪埋藏成了地雷 等待爆裂

we had joy, we had fun

........I m gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket,but i ve got get a move on with my life, its time to be a big girl now...and BIG GIRLS DONT CRY........
big girls dont cry(fergie)

Its obvious that i m still humming this song no matter what happen to me or wherever i go ;). I had a special memory in this song(although i m quite forgetful these days :P). It used to be our favourite song when we were in college. We can sing anywhere,anytime.


Last last wednesday, we get to gathered together again after sooooo long in Neway,Centro. yes, 3 years, we ve been friends for 3 years and we became best friend now and we never stop keep in touch with each other ;). at least we still crapping alot through skype, msn and text...Hahaha...

Let me start with the pictures 1st , hehe

Susie was the 1st person i knew in college. I still remember the 1st day of schooling, both of us dont have class in the morning, so we spent our morning together . day after day, we became very close and she started to bully me T_T...luckily i have lester ...LALA ~~ (susie, u shall be speechless when u read this :P ) Let me say something good about you la...She was my full-time listener which i "hired" 3 years ago. I used to tell her avthin from in to out about myself. She knew avthin so we dont have secrets with each other(i guess so). Avtime, i talk, she ll just sit quietly and listen and give advice when she need to . She was the one to borrow me money when i m running out of cash(i m a shopaholic, no denial ! haha) . She was just like my big sister when my sister is not around.But we as the younger very naughty cuz we always give her nickname like Ms Late and Ms Old Lady. Stop denying u being older lar.... :P :P :P if i m goin to talk about her, this post is goin to be her own onli..haha...

SIGHHHH...now , ur leaving to France...far far away from meeeeeee...so sad...i goin to miss you...T_T. Why lar why avone is leavin?? When i ll be able to see you again? I m sure this is a tough question for u .

Forgot about the Neway, we had a blast that day...Susie so so so shock sendiri...especially when she sang "wei ni er huo" , she look like this .



FYI , i love to post susie ugly pic on my bloggie cuz they are very precious...hahahahaha....

Very Shock Sendiri...aiks..it was my last time to see u so perasan liao... T_T GET ME LV HANDBAG AND GUCCI TOTE BAG when u get to PARIS !!!!! :P anyway, thanks for ur encouragement text when i was havin my chemo...

another SS-Queen wannabe...haha... :P my paktou which always hunt nice food with me :) btw, thanks for ur console from the long-distance calls when u just heard i m goin for biopsy surgery..thanks thanks
too bad, this year there were lots of things i cant do with you.. T_T..nvr mind, lets plan for next year one....i oso wanna go a backpack trip with u :)))
SAVE $$$$ !!!

She's the VINTAGY BOSS ..hehe..Greet her!!!support her more..Thanks for ur tofu seaweed soup and sweets and Sony PS 2 to occupy my boring moments when i was in hospital and she was the one who came to visit me right after my surgery(i was very blur but i remember she was there with me). Thank u thank u thank u .Yipee !! I shall meet u in college next year, i wanna join u in gym oso !! Guess i need to follow Subway sandwiches diet...KEKE *evil grins*

THen and now...now she took revenge on me by pulling my ears....T_T ..i was so shocked to see her....such a big change of her..fyi, although she look much more mature now, but when she started to speak, she still look like a lil girl....keke....SEe u college next year toooooooooooo !! dont u dare to dissappear again !! :PP

Everyone in it ! HEhehe..my happiest day after all....we sing, we jump, we dance...i think neway dah nak runtuh liao...keke..Thanks for ur consideration for my inconvenience...I m very very grateful that ur spirit keep me goin on bravely till today !! I m very glad to have you guys by my side..Although we dont meet each other avday, but i know u ll always care for me ! I m not alone !! Lets moving on together for our future dreamsssssssss !!

..................Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strongMove along, move along like I know you do And even when your hope is gone Move along, move along just to make it through Move along..........

move along(all american rejects )

P/s : my skype are fixed now..make sure u get u sign up for skype, susie !! So, i can kacau u all the time ...woohoo !!

I want to be FREE !!!

*Ahem, i m suppose to blog about me n my besties KTV day...but it gonna takes me a long time to concentrate on the long post... :( I have to think more so i can make the post interesting..hehe..Stay tuned , dont go away even the toilet oso... :P


ok..stop being childish here..Hello !! I m 20 already !! hehehe

Happy Birthday , my brother. i never wish my brother in person because it could be very awkward ya know...hahaha...Well, he never been a good brother(sorry to said tht :) ) but because of him, i m able to study in a good coll...Thanks gor gor ! hope u enjoy ur celebration last night( I guess u really did enjoyed..HAHA) and i shall curi ur cake n eat later on...hehe...Get a gf, bro !!

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I got a problem since i was sick . I guess i should have stop playing fb to escape those probs(jk la, how can i stop playing fb)....There were times my friends wrote on my wall in fb (the long-lost friends).They ll be asking something sort of :

Hey , how are you ?

Hey, hows life?

Where are you studying ?

What are u planning to do next ?

I dont like to lie actually (i did lie when the situation force me to :P ) .I can feel the stress when ppl asking me like that. I wish i could tell them i m sick over here so that people would understand my circumstances..But i cant. I know my pride, my muka !! I dont know how to answer them but to lie..I feel guilty to lie about it , but i have no choice. I couldnt even let them know i m still stuck in pre-u, i m afraid that people might laugh at me(someone did tht, i know :( ) Yeala yeala, i m stupid enough ok? u happy now ?? Laying on the bed with weak body , but i have to be strong and tell avone that i m okay is a hard thing to do.

On the other hand, when i accompany my parents to hypermarket to get some groceries, i would bumped into some high school friends( some are quite close, but not really close ) . I would pretend not looking them. Sigh ....

I may look very healthy and plump in appearance but inside my body, i m weak. I dont wish to be admitted into the hospital again ! I had promise myself not again ! Today, i m goin to eat more rice .I m goin to make my stomach full with foodsssss cuz tmr and the following days , i m not allow to eat any oily food, vege and fruits till the pet scanning on Thursday .

Wish me luck and blessssssssssssss me ! I ll be very appreciating !! :P

I love u guys...hope u love me too...bluek !!

P.s : to my elder and my youngest sis..Poor u , one havin running nose, one havin mild fever with serious coughing..Faster recover lar..Bless u bless u bless u bless u bless u...hehe..I love u !

Tesselaar Tulips Festival

Here comes the spring, my favourite season !

Faster ! Faster !

I wanna go Tesselaar Tulips Festival 2009 :P

T_T..I hope no more treatments,at least no transplant !!God Bless me ! :)

upnext : KTV day ! :P

Oooohh ~Deliciously SUBWAY !!

Thats why i love flea market so much ! Cuz i can buy anythin without thinking the price ....i m broke liao..more things to be spend on....T_T

teehehehehee...show u something

Yes ! My very own bangles , 3 for 20 bucks...Its handmade btw...The floral on the bangles really vintage......Love them ,love them !! keke...

Ohya, need ur help here..i know i m a colour blind cuz sometimes i cant even match the colours well...hehe

I just wanna know whether my blue skinny pants match with tis yellow blouse and whether the grey cardigan match with tis yellow blouse and whether the pink cap match with the yellow blouse...PHew!! *sweat*..its so hard to explain..

Leave the msg in the cbox...Kamsahamida !! ;)