two zero one zero

Here comes the end of 2009...

Nothin seem to be difference to me..

I had been spending the entire year for chemotherapies, ct scans, Pet scan , blood check and radiotherapies. I had been spending most the times goin up and down the hospital, chitchatting with those nurses and docs and receiving treatments.

I m very grateful that all the docs and nurses treated me very well. Thanks to Kak Yati who was by my side all the time and cheer me up when i m in pain .Thanks to Dr Jerome, who always try to give me good news to make me feel better. and Thank to Dr Alex who sacrificed my last vein...hahaha...but Dr Alex is a good guy and marvelous listener.He often speak something very meaningful to me :P. I suddenly miss them so muchhhhhhhhhh...They had been my best friends for the whole year !!! :P Of course not forgetting my parents and my siblings who are with me all the time when i m fighting with my disease. Thanks to my elder sis who sacrificed most of the free time to accompany to for the whole month when you are at home !!! too many ppl that i felt very grateful too..Thanks everyone for supporting and stay by my side when i m down or weak !! Kamsahamida !! Saranghae yo !! Happy NEw YEar !!

I m goin to turn 21 tomorrow :

Although i m a bit disappointed and i dont get to enjoy the year like most ppl act did , i gained something even more meaningful instead of living my life blindly . I think i m growing up to be more a woman but not a silly , unthoughtful little girl. I m very glad that i m able to think more wisely before taking any action.I m also very glad that i dont have to depend on my parents so much and i can earn some money to ease some of my parents' burden. :) I had started to create more organic recipes to make myself and person around healthier and changing my food habit . besides, instead of having a "black face", i started to smile more to other ppl no matter wherever i go.well, Smile is the most friendly act okay ??

Like Morrie said in the seventh Tuesday : The Fear of Aging

"As you grow. you learn more.If you stayed at 22,you'd always be as ignorant as you were at 22.Aging is not just a decay, you know.It's GROWTH .It's more than the NEGATIVE that you're goin to die, it's also POSITIVE that you understand you're goin to die, and that YOU LIVE A BETTER LIFE BECAUSE OF IT. "

"But if aging is so valuable, why do ppl always say, " OH, I WISH I WERE YOUNG AGAIN." you never hear ppl say, "I WISH I WERE 65." " You know what reflects?" UNSATISFIED LIVES. UNFULFILLED LIVES. LIVES THAT HAVEN'T FOUND THE MEANING. BECAUSE IF YOU'VE FOUND MEANING IN YOUR LIFE, YOU DONT WANNA GO BACK.YOU WANT TO GO FORWARD .YOU WANT TO SEE MORE, DO MORE. YOU CAN'T WAIT UNTIL 65.

2010, i have new resolutions !!

1) I want to be completely cancer free !!! Say no to Hogskin Lymphoma.

2) God, please bless the Leukimia-ns...Ease their pain pls....

3) Travelling alone (omg..I had been wishing this for two years la, hopefully nothing stop me anymore :()

4 ) Hope everyone stay healthy always.

5) Create morrrreeeeeeeeee Organic recipess :)

6) Go to the beach .

7) Its time to back to coll :P

See you in TWO ZERO ONE ZERO !!

Aza aza Hwaiting !!

Hard Days

*Dont think i ll be posting about Ipoh and Bangkok...lazy...teeehehehe

Such a difficult week i had ...phew!!

Tmr will be even more tough and the following weeks too..

Radiotherapy may seem less suffering as what you guys heard ...

But i still find it quite suffering lar...

The therapies are painless and it only take 5min each time

But after the therapy, i would have headache.

I feel very hot and thirsty and no appetite for food.

Most importantly, i feel sleepy...

This is how i feel so far.

I heard from doc the side effects would be worse from day to day,week to week.

I m well prepare now !! :)

Ohyea !! I got my Iris soundtrack like few weeks ago ?!!!

show off abit to u la..

U might said i kena racun or obsess with the drama !

BUt i m totally into it and still listening the ost like no one business...HAHA..

n Brilliant Legacy which i pretty obsessed previously..tada !!

To tell you the truth, I really love to collect dramas ost...I can take pic for my whole collection to show u la....

Love those ost and they cant find in Malaysia ya know !!

Thanks to my fav Gmarket which provided such a good quality soundtracks !!

On the other hand, I just finished reading Tuesday with Morrie...

I would said this is really a inspiring book ..Highly recommended !!

I learnt many things from the book. Life and death :)

I feel like sharing my thought from chapter to chapter if possible hehe

I read till the book already became "Kiam Chai" (salty vege in hokkien dialect)

I m goin to highlight the important things that Prof Morrie said ..

No wonder PuiMun said Mitch Albom's books are magical...HAHAHAHA...

Now i understand liao... :P

Another quote i love from Tuesdays with Morrie :

"Love is when you are as concerned about someone else's situation as you are about your own."

I pretty like this quote and i dont think many people would able to make it like the quote above.So are you this type of person ?? Back then , i was not but now i m because I had gone through the toughest thing in my life. :) Be sincere!

chewlian

Are you trying to be as Human as you can be ?

Okay, my X'mas and New Year for this year were ruined again !

Attempted to plan a party but failed.

I never have a proper celebration for myself.

I had requested to my sis to throw me a very interesting theme party when i m fully recover but the prob is WHEN ?

Radiotherapy starts tomorrow.

According to doc, i might hav difficulty to swallow food for some time cos my throat will hurt.

My skin will turn dark.

I m not ready but i have no choice.

I must be very very strong cos i told my mum i ll try my best to be strong.

Hard times will pass very fast and happy times will be coming ahead

Bless me and wish me luck.

Hope all the 6cm mass will be disappear after 20times of therapies.

I would like to try to back to Kumon but my parents dont seem to allow me to go to work for now until i finish all the treatments

But ..but i m goin to miss all the kiddiesss

especially Lil princess Hannah ...teeehehehee...

This is the only part time job i m looking forward all the time and i learnt a lot of things from the job lar....

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On the other hand, i had finished watching IRIS series

But Hyun Joon was shoot to dead when he was on his way to propose Seung-Hee

Alar..the ending was so so so pathetic lar..i dont like!!! :(

If Lee Byung Hun(Hyun Joon) is goin to continue Season 2, he would have marry Kim Tae Hee(Seung-Hee) in the drama....AWWWWW !!

Yipeeee...got news about Iris casts is goin to Nz,Aus, Italy...etc to film season 2...keke...

I wanna go tooo !! hehe...

Currently addicted to Seo in Young- Cant i love and Michael Buble- Havent Met You Yet

Those two songs are awesome !!! Love ittttttttt !! :P

Read Tuesday with Morrie lately and still on the way, i would like to adapt some sentences that i like the most for you guys:

" So many people walk around with a meaningless life.They seem half-asleep, even they re busy doing things they think are important.This is because they are chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others ,devote yourself to your community around you,and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."

Give yourself some spaces and times, slow down your pace and think about your life :)

P/s : will try to get some time post up about Ipoh. TIll then , Goodbye

-ChewLian-

Ann yeong haseyeo

Hello, people !

Just back from ipoh on sat and busy attending my cousin wedding since she was the 1st cousin who married ! kekee..

Well, ipoh trip was very fruitful

We got to stay in 5-star Koay Family Villa...hahaha

We ate alot of nice food and i started to miss Dim Sum, Hor Fun and green colour Soya Bean !! :)

Felt Guilty for eating too much of fish balls since cant eat meat now

When i came back, i seriously wanting to eat more green vegetables...HAHA...lol

Feel Good to be home..Get to eat mum's cooking food ler ! :P

But goin to leave home tmr again ! :P

Goodbye Malaysia, Savadikaa Bangkok !

This time i wont control myself

Will shopping till i drop no matter how.

no one could stop me

its been a year since i shopped ...So...

Its time for chewlian to show her hidden talent : SHOPPING !!!!!!

My Hair grew very long and dark n bushy !

So i decided not to depend on my cap so much!

Tell u what ! I m a Stage 3 Hogskin Lymphoma patient!

I had just managed to finished all the chemotherapy !

Cheeerrrsss !! I m fine now !

Amitabha !!

will post more about ipoh sooonnn..very soon right after i m back from bangkok, hopefully

Yak-sok- geh ! (Promise)

P/s : why my pic can never be clear when i post on the bloggie one ?? Any idea ??!!

Love of iris

After i listened Baek ji young's new song , Dont forget, i cried becos it was so touching eventhough i dont understand the lyrics tht time
And now , i know !! Such a meaningful lyrics.
Then, as i watched more Iris, i found another song that touched my heart,
LOVE OF IRIS by Shin Seung Hun .

I dont know what kind of music or songs u might like,
but i like comfortable and nice lyrics songs and i would like to share with everyone :)
Enjoy the song !!

P/s : Ipoh tis comin thursday and fri and Bangkok next Thursday !! CHeerrrssssss !! :P For my dears frens who are goin to have their exam soon, all the best yea ! God Bless You !! btw, WELCOME BACK TO MALAYSIA , SUSAN!!!

Buttermilk waffles

As u know, just got my sandwich maker few weeks ago ...
Teehehehee... :P


SO, i decided to try buttermilk waffles which i found the recipe on marthastewart.com
I found out that there's a lot of baking recipes in that websites
If u want healthier recipes, u might wanted to try cookbook101.com or u can be like me modify the ingredients

These are the ingredients tht i modified :), i used organic unbleached wheat flour instead of normal flour,i used canola oil ,organic egg instead of non-organic one,and liquid fructose instead of sugar and sea-salt too ...

Tada ~~~~the outcome !! the appearance is quite nice..but not crispy and taste like pancakes ...I dont mind. Like the Adidas famous quote : NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE . I would wanna try it again !! :)

I like my simple life.....slow and relasx.instead of loitering around KL, why dont friends? we come and learn baking and cooking ! It must be a very interesting experience ...hehe :P

I got my Gap again !!

Mmmhhhmm..

After a year, got a text from my neighbour aka my primary skol classmate, Xin Shi called me up for drink ...

Act, to be honest, its been a year i didnt meet up with the fren who live around me..I guess its time to open my heart and reveal my little not-so-proud secret lar..hahaha.

next would be Yar Bien !!! haha..i ll try to find a time to contact you...byk activiti lately lar..hehehe ..Sorry !! :P

Xin Shi was quite shocked when she heard about it cos she live so near to my house that she dont even know. hehe...hmm..this shows that i m very good in keeping this secret huh ??!! Okay, no worries now, I m fine and super fine !!!! Even my docs and nurses felt unbelievable that i gained alot of weight ...Aww..need to lose weight now !!! T_T

And so , we went to Centro for drinks cos we dont wanna go to a place tht are too near to my house and i hate mamak btw !!!

We decided to have New Zealand Natural instead of Starbucks ( too sweet and the taste too thick for me n pricey too ..hehe)

Hmm..we shared a large one with 3 flavours : surprise strawberry, cafe espresso and mint choc kisses. Eventually i dont feel like choosing mint choc kisses cos i dont feel like eat choc n i had been eating tht for so many times !! But most of the ice cream were quite sweet !! I like STRAWBERRY flavour,hehe...not too sweet and a mild taste of strawberry :) cafe espresso oso not bad but when i eat too much, my throat felt abit uncomfortable lar.. :)

Nz natural made her so irresistible...hahaha

Aww..why i never look thinner in the pic !!!! T_T

I like the sky juice when lemons are added... :)

XInshi attempted to take a nice photos of the glass..lol

Last but not least, the world map which just infront of my eyes ..I wanna go everywhere...lala ~

Good night !

Love u,

chewlian

P/s : upnext ! cheers for hols !!

Time to get outta of here :)

Last sat, i met up with Shinyee for DAISO ...teehehehe

Got my fleth cloth and guess what i found in the 5 ringgit thing in Daiso.

Lol...an electric eraser....hahaha..fyi, it was specially design for lazy ppl but not me lar...I bought it becos of my curiousity....Ekekeke..:P

On the other hand, me n shinyee managed to try pancake cuisine in

hmm...i think the cage is prettier than Kim Gary one lor...hahah..well, i quite fond of the restaurant. The songs they played were very comfortable and their food were nice too..I would rate 4 stars out of 5 stars. The price was abit pricey though...

I truly in love with their pancakes now !! Om nom nom nom nom !I had tried to make pancakes but still failed though and i have no idea about it...Their pancakes are not too sweet and they are fragrant too...yee said they might be using vanilla essense..hmm..would prefer if they keep the natural taste of pancakes lar :)

yee's food : shrimp, chic and crepes :)

mine : baked dory fish, wrapped lettuce with crepes and mashed potatos :)..quite a healthy option btw ;)but the mashed potatos are quite milky or creamy i should say and i m not really used to the taste

dessert : mini pancakes with choc fondue !!!

P/s: i would definitely come back and eat again !! Teehehehee..stop drooling and try it now..i can be your company if u want too hehe

Boys' haircut

I was really excited these few weeks...

Becos whenever i watch korean dramas on KBS channel, most of the actresses have their boys' haircut

Isnt that great ??!!!

FYI, my hair is growing bushier and bushier day by day and even longer btw ....teehehehe..

but but but , not so long as the photos below...i still need sometime to take off my cap :)

Show you some example :

Few years ago, Yoon Eun Hye had short hair when she was acting for coffee prince.

Ekekeke..now, its getting popular for girl to have boys' haircut :P

Kim so-yeon with stylish short hair in IRIS

Park Shin hye's hairstyle oso considerable too in the drama of YOU RE BEAUTIFUL XD

Chae Jung Ahn also look pretty in short hair :P (below in the pic)

Kim Min Jung(red checker shirt) cut her hair for new upcoming drama with Lee Jun Ki , HERO

Oh yun soo ( i dont really know her, but accidentally saw her in short hair in KBS channel) got her short hair tooooo !!! eventhough i watched abit abit, the drama oso quite interesting :)

Awww..even my fav actress, Kim Tae Hee attempted to cut off her long hair for IRIS drama upcoming episodes !!! She had her long hair for so long..never mind, its a fresh new look for her :)

P/s: hmmm..its time to get some new looks :P on the other hand, I wanna watch all the dramas above including SMILE !!!!! GIve me more time plssss !!

-chewlian-

live life.love life II

my Mum's lotus already bloom !!teehehehe...

I quickly took my camera n tried to capture the best shot..

this is what i ve got

still not satisfy though...

hehehe...

suddenly i miss all the hospital nurses and docs..

n especially Eric the pharmacist..hahah..lol

joking onli lar ...i wonder where did he go now :(

but i miss my lovely nurses and the staffs the most !!!hehehe

on the other hand, i think i had save enough $$ for Bangkok..

while i m flying on the 10th and shinyee flying off to Korea by 11th, i guess

Jealous right !!gek dao ~~ :S

I ve been dreaming for Seoul for so many years...

Its okay ! I can still go when i m afford to , right ?!

I m very lucky enough now ! :)

知足常乐hehehee =P

for now, i must work harder and harder..so i can save more $$.Ekekekeke....so many plans ahead ya know...even meeting a fren will have to spend alot now...Agree?? !!Sighhh...

oh oh oh ..btw, just got my sandwich maker for FREEEeeee ..my sandwich maker very convenient la, can grill, toast and even make waffles..I m goin to make waffles next week..feel free to be my guest and try my waffles yea :P

anyway, All the best to my youngest sis in her SPM !!Most importantly , sleep well and healthy come first. Dont think u ll be listen to me if i advice you face to face becos u r very Stubborn :s bluek !! :P

-love you,chewlian-

S.O.S she s in disguise

I love SHakira but i love SHE WOlf even more !!



Lyrics | Shakira Lyrics | She Wolf Lyrics



P/S : i like the chorus...cos shakira sang it so special...no one can sing it as good as her !! woohoo !!

left or right? up or down? yes or no?

meet Missy Pink Dolphin...ooopss..sorry, been hiding you for so long in the drawer..teehehehehehe.

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i have a hard decision to make which might ruin my future ....i had my radiology appt and my doc told me that they have to "kill off" the gland near my arm. the effect is i have 50% of the risk that both of my hands would swell twice bigger than my current one. The prob is if this happen,i have to live with it forever . T_T..i dont wanna live with two big elephant hands !! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! NEVER !!!

This is my last stage of treatment and God is still playing with me . No, i cant handle this. i m so young...YOU cant do this to me !!! everytime i went to hospital sure got surprises waiting for me. I meant bad surprise. Tell me what to do , PLEASE !!

P/s: docs are still discussing whether to kill of not kill the gland.*finger crossed*for my future, please help me !

I M GONNA GETCHA GOOD !

Busy busy busy !!

Why my life is still busy although i m havin holiday ??!!

I have so many unfinished things to do ...:S..i m goin crazy soon !!
Interview on Friday in Ling Montessori..

Lol...the kindergarten is less than 500m away my house..

guess i can ride my bicycle to kindergarten...hehe..

hope theywill hire me *finger crossed**NERVOUS*

Havin radiology appt by next Tuesday !

back to General hospital KL where i first admitted last year for biopsy surgery!

God ! i hate tht place ..so complicated and old and dirty... =.=and i dont even how radiotherapy work..

NO IDEA AT ALL !! T_T

Well, very happy that i had plan for my holiday life till July 2010

Goin back to coll by July since degree oso start by July... hehe..i know i m lazy but i need to be mentally prepare lar :

Nov- this month would be a lil busy though.

-radiotherapy

-Kumon job every Mon & Thurs

Dec -Mayb still doin radiotherapy

- Bangkok shopping trip (hopefully i dont hav to cancel the trip )

Jan till Mac - working and working and working :P

April - Goodbye Malaysia !!!

Just bought a new camera ..

Din take many photos though cos not goin anywhere till DEC !! woohoo...

but i did attempt to take some pictures from my mom's "lil garden"...hehe

I love takin photos by using digital macro now..the outcome look like DSLR...lol

okay..need to practice more on photography jor....i need a teacher !!! :S

i know the photos dont look pro ..okay ?? these are just part of my practices ..

haha...

I ll practice harder ! Gambateh !!

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On the other hand, i found something very sweet on my notice board

Leen and Yee secretly put a sticky note..

I found it like weeks ago but i cant capture it clearly with my phone ..

So, with my Canon IXUS 110

I got this !

THank you very much for the sticky note..

well, so speechless about this cos i never expect u guys will do such a sweet things..hehehe

no offence, right??haha :P

honestly, i dont know what should i do to repay u guys...u guys really take care of me alot whether i m in ward or out-ward..THank you !!

dont worry ! I had threw away all those emo sticky notes..hehhe..

its final exam season now...I hope u guys can pass ur final with flying colours

Live life.Love life.

Muacksss!

-chewlian-

aku multi-tasker

When i was cleaning my shoes in the cupboard,

i realised that both of these ballerinas are very special

Becos each pair of ballerinas were gifted by two very special person in my life

Mom & Dad

*Sorry for abandoning the black ballerina for like a year++ =.=llll *guilty*

Thank you for accompany me along my sicky journey.

I am very sorry for my obstreperous-ness.

Sorry if i m disobedient

I m sorry for raising my voice lately without understand the whole situation

I m sorry for forgetting how hard that both of you sending me up and down the hospital and brought healthy food when i was in the ward.

I m sorry for my hot- tempered

I know i m not a perfect person

BUT

I ll try harder and harder and harder and harder to improve myself.

I PROMISE.

Please forgive me ! :)

Love you,

-chewlian-

Organic Molasses Cookies

Woohoo ! I m very excited that my second attempt on my molasses cookies was a success :)

this time i m using organic unbleached flour instead of wheat flour .

The outcome was very good.

The cookies are much more smoother than last time and less sweeter cos this time i just put a lil bit (mayb 2-3 teaspoons) of confectioner sugar.

I learnt how to make cookies with flower shape....Teehehehe...

isnt that great ??!!

recipe :

1 1/2 cup of unbleached flour

1 organic egg

1/2 teaspoon of baking powder

1/2 teaspoon of salt

2-3teaspoon of sugar

1 cup of molasses ( depends)

hmmm....i guess i can remember the recipe now... :P if you wanna try, let me know , i ll teach you :P

Molasses is a kind of liquid dark sugar which are high in potassium and calcium

for those who have anemia should try to drink molasses avday :)

they are really effective in red blood cell production ! TRUST ME !! :P

on the other hand, i m very grateful that i can use my time very wisely

i had tried to make muffins and cupcakes , i had tried to make some handicrafts by using fleth cloth...

errr...i think i should try to do a card and learn korean language now !! :)

Aww...i wanna learn so so so many things now ! =.=lll

anyway, me busy looking for jobs . hopefully i can find a teaching job in chinese primary school T_T...

i seriously need to save money for my upcomin trip cos

I AM 20 years old..i dont wanna depend on my parents always !!

Wish me luck!

Love you !

x0x0

-chewlian-

Everybody have stories to tell,but not me =(

I m currently very very very very into IRIS korean drama by Lee Byung Heon and Kim Tae Hee. Yipee...well

FYI,

Kim Tae Hee is one of my top 3 fav actress in my fav list...Ekekekek*evil grin*. I really really like her cos she always look so pretty and elegant XD.Awww..isnt she pretty !!!!!!!! :)

As you know , i m always watching korean drama...but to let you know, this is a very completely diff korean dramas.those who never like would definitely fell in love with it. Its all about assassination and they are very kan cheong man !!! :P

And and and Lee Byung heon really look hot and man in the drama....Awww..love him !! its really cute when both of the couple flirted with each other in the office....lolx...hahahah

this song had been my fav song since last week !! Aww..Love it !! :)

L.O.L

My fav student in Kumon , Natassha came to me when she did half of her classwork

Natassha : Teacher ~~~ , i wanna call daddy?
me : Why ?
Natassha: Becos i m hungry ....*evil grin*
me: Do u wanna go back ? if u wanna go home and eat, u have to finish ur classwork, dear. :)

she went back to her seat and continued her classwork...
After 5 mins......

Natassha : TEACHER ~~~~~~~
me : What do u want?
Natassha : Sleepy...(not really happy liao)
me: U still have to finish your work 1st lar ( i smiled) . U can eat and sleep later on if u manage to finish your classwork...

Then she started to use another trick : CRY !!!
omg....
Luckily , she managed to finished all her classwork and correction by the help of Mrs Lau....phew !! *sweat* At least , she smiled back again later on :)
So hard to handles tis lil tricky kid. =.=lll

Anyway, she made me feel delighted tonight !
Goodnight !!! huggies !!
Sweet dreams
-chewlian-

If i wrote a note to God

currently very into this song : Note to God by Charice Pempengco
I love her voice so so much....
She is just like the second Celine Dion.
I just listened her duet with Celine Dion (Because You Loved Me) when CD was having concert in Madison Square Garden last year....
Her singing touched me :)...
its a must listen song ya know ! :P

Well, me dont really wanna communicate with anyone lately...
I m 85% recover from my disease
i m happy and i m not at the same time...
The moment i knew my Pet scan result was negative, i was jumping in joyness
after awhile, i felt very confused...
Because i dont know wat should i do now

I am not ready for coll yet...

I m afraid of how ppl think of me

I felt discriminated by the society..

I felt i m far left behind than you guys.

I m afraid i might be sick again in 5 years time

I felt weird for my life. (current)

I m very scare to take the 1st step to start off everything from zero

I m afraid that history might happen againn !

i m afraid i cant cope with my studies.

I.....have so many probs arouse in my mind now...

U have no idea how much i ve been through...

and how m i goin to start off with my new life from the zero..

I m so desperate for a peace of mind.....
Tell me what should i do now ??

If I wrote a note to God

I would speak what's in my soul

I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away

For love to overflow

If I wrote a note to God

I'd pour my heart out on each page

I'd ask for war to end

and for peace to mend this world

I'd sayI'd sayI'd say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, cause love is overdue

And it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

I'd say please help us find a way

End all the bitterness, put some tendernessin our hearts

I'd sayI'd sayI'd say

Give us the strength to make it through

Help us find love, cause love is overdue

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help from you

Grant us the faith to carry on

Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone

Cause it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

NoNoWe can't do it on our own

SoSo(Give us the strength to make it throughHelp us find love, cause love is overdue)

And it looks like we haven't got a clue

Need some help

Grant us the faith to carry on

Hope when it seems all hope is gone

Cause it seems like so much is going wrong

On this road we're on

NoNo(No)

We can't do it on our own

(So)So

If I wrote a note to God

NOte to God- Charice Pempengco

99 balloons

Few days ago, i saw this 6 mins long video on Oprah show....a very touching video which inspired me to appreciate everyday and peoples around me. well, this video was about :

Eliot was born with an undeveloped lung, a heart with a hole in it and DNA that placed faulty information into each and every cell of his body. However, that could not stop the living God from proclaiming Himself through this boy who never uttered a word.

In the midst of heartbreaking tragedy, the Mooney family found the presence of God strengthening, comforting, and guiding them. Their story reminds us to seek God and endure our struggles rather than blame Him for our hardships.

-resource from ignitermedia.com-

Elliot was a very tough baby for me. I ll learn determination and strong from Elliot ...I ll try my best to improve myself..i hope u too :)

May god bless u :)

A gift for you all, and may u ll be live everyday gratefully ..... ;)

on the other hand, Happy burfday, Pm !!! may u enjoy your birthday celebration ...hhehehe

hope the video below inspire you to live even stronger !!! :P

I hate myself for being jeolous !!

現在的我　還是對愛　充滿疑惑

　沒對或錯　還不想給　什麼承諾

　保持沉默　獨自走過

　空虛和寂寞　它們陪伴著我

　裝作灑脫　其實很懦弱

　有太多的藉口　終究沒有結果

　
＊誰讓我感覺　他最了解我

　眼神交錯　話都不用說

　就抱緊我　讓我感受　他多愛我

　誰讓我感覺　不需要再躲

　過去心痛　從此被淹沒

　就抱緊我　讓我感受　讓我感受　他多愛我

　讓我相信　他是愛　愛我的　

未來的我　一個人過　也算不錯

　冰冷的手　插入口袋　也算暖和　
日出日落　都差不多

　若有誰陪我　那一定更好過

　天空為我　一直閃爍著

　用太多的藉口　我在拒絕什麼　
- 蔡健雅 – 誰-

Live Life.Love life

hola ! I m coming back again with good news !

hmm..but wait! hehe..

i wanna talk about my parents surprise birthday celebration ...teehehehe

I am so excited that all my sibling "pakat" together for our parents' birthday

Well, i planned the surprise last min as my elder sis sent extra money for me.

So, i booked a so-called 5 star vegetarian restaurant in Kechara Oasis which was quite recommended by the bloggers.

I ordered the ice-cream cake (since i had the complimentary 500g voucher :P)

I drove them to Jaya One..

Ordered Shark fin soup , kechara salad, 5 Mandala of prosperity........etc....

The food werent satisfying enough, not natural enough....n they are freaking EXPENSIVE !! =.=

So, after that , i gave them the present that i sewed for them(above)

Mummy and daddy, u should be touched....i spent a week to finish it lar... :Pits worth it for me anyway even you scolded me when i was sewing in the room :S

Since we cant bring our ice-cream cake with us, we sang the song at home...hehe

My daddy was so delighted like a small kid....hehehe..

Happy birthday , dad and mum !!

I ll be more obedient and fillial and and and take care of my health properly and never let u worry of me anymore !

Lurvvveee uuuuuuuu ! Muackssss...

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Oh yeap ! Here comes the dramatic good news ~

7th of oct which was a very big and nervous day for me

Its been a month i felt stressful and AV me twice a month...wtf

I woke up as normal like i always went for chemo in hospital

I waited for nurse to called my name to meet my doc...

u know wat, each time i heard nurse called my name, my heart beated even faster..LOL

I was too nervous that i have to keep praying and praying

I met the doctor after like 3 hours of waiting ??>....

DrJerome(nickname:mad scientist..Shhh:P) : Hey, how are you??

Me : *nodded*(of course i m fine lar =.=,even healthier k?)

Dr Jerome : u felt suffer during chemo right ??

Me : (i was like .......hello, of course lar, who ever wanted to get so many chemo)yes !!!

While he looked for my results, he suddenly...

Dr.Jerome : Hey , i cant trace ur PET-Ct result la...

Me: (Wth!!)i had been waiting for a month, and u haven see the results ah?

Dr. Jerome: Hmm..let me call Putrajaya hosp, and ask them to fax the results ,k?

after he called, he chatted lil bit with us

Dr Jerome: Hmm..i guess u need to do bone marrow test lar cuz i think hor u r in Stage 3 and ur tumour kinda big so i think u need Stem Cell Transplant

Me : Huh ?? Seriously....(i felt like crying )dont talk so pessimistic mah !! Haisss

Dr.Jerome: dont worry lar...

Dr Jerome always scared i ll cry and he had to comfort me all the time...haha..poor him !

Since they lost my result , i have to wait another 4 hours to wait the stupid hosp fax me the results cuz of some stupid technical probs

when i got impatient, i told the stuff to get the hosp to send me the results through emails but still failed..

after few mins, we got a complete results ...

omg, i m getting nervous and nervous,

and i m so reluctant to know the results

Dr.Jerome: Hmm....avthin is clear now !!

Me : OMG !! THANKS GOD ! ( i jumped in joyness) so , i dont need transplant right?

Dr.Jerome: Yes,but u need a lil bit of radiotherapy that ur skin might turn darker abit

Well, i couldnt ask for a better solution cuz this is the less suffer way to my recovery...

Well, till now,

i continued my job in Kumon

as i need more money to cover my trip to Mel and Nz next year !

I m looking for general clerk jobs but no answer yet !!

Hire me lar !! :(

n n n n n n n

BANGKOK will be my 1st sweet escape !!!! Yipeee....

Love you !!!

-chewlian-

CHEWLIAN TH3 SHOPAHOLIC IS BACK !!

Poor bloggie ! been abandoned lately....Sorry, sweetheart ! :)

Havin moodswing lately...

Chatted with the future psychologist,Eileen..

Felt better but moodswing came back again !

Omg !! Omg !!

but leen, trust me ! I m not moodswing about tht stupid memories ..hehe..

I m fine ! I believed i can do it soon ..very soon :)

Everyone is busy, so m i ..

Well, Little Miss Chew Lian needs new friends over here... :P

I just wish the time could stop

so nothin happen..
reminiscing those stupid memories werent fine to me

but i believed time would make all the things fade away, i guess?? :P

I am neither ready for the ugly truth nor i could handle it ...(hopefully avthin will be fine)

After all, i miss my sister...

Becuz i knew she would be by my side all the time no matter how.Even if she is not with me, her spirit is with me all the time.

I need to get away from here...far far far away where there are no ppl know me and get a new life and a reborn me.

I think i need to learn to keep quiet when i m suppose to.

I guess ppl think i m annoying and noisy but i couldnt help it

Say u hate me pls. :)

I ll try to improve this bad habit ;) I PROMISE !

I love my job although my boss paid me little and being bullied by the bitches in the centre

but i found happiness in the kids

Their innocent faces, smiles which made all my worries gone....

They learnt from me, i learnt from them too.

I hope i could continue for some time before i leave for "holiday".( i dont noe holiday define the hospital or the real getaway to nz..:( )

I m sad now..

I hate the society in the high-tech 21st century

Earth are very angry right now and sad at the same time.

Earthquake, contagious diseases, typhoon,tsunami just happened continuously..

Why people want to fight for power, money, position,..etc etc..??

I hate these !!

i wonder how long can i stay in this world...

When will you wake up ?

I need peace! I need the co-operation from avone !!

I..................................just want to have a peaceful life..

I...................................want the nature.

Can we still get together peacefully and be friends again ??

No more racism, no more politics prob, no more jealousy,no more inflation and live in moderation , PLEASE ??!

MODERATION , PLEASE !!

For P-E-A-C-E !

I must think positive !

Oooh !! I had a wonderful weekend in Deidre's Hse few weeks back :) and we got to celebrate Camwhore Queen Birthday - Suet Teng's :P..

Thanks to Deidre's mom, i felt a lil paiseh cuz u guys have to tolerate with me and prepare organic vegetables for me . Thank you !! Thank you !! :)

Oh,yea ! The so-temptatiously-delicious homemade temppanyaki. I guess i know how to cook now..it was so easy :)

Ready ? 1, 2, 3 , GO !! haha..we are so busy eating once deidre's mom served all the ingredients out. :P..me n june busy cooking the bean sprout cuz they are so delicious to cook with Garlic spread. And then me got "scolded"..haha..cuz i finished auntie's garlic spread...Sorry, Auntie !! :P btw, i really enjoyed the marinated fish ,auntie !!! :)

pics time ! Deidre's house living room very comfortable. When i stepped into her house, all i can see were photos around :). I m quite envious to her cause her family members very very close and they dont have a wall btw family members . u get it? The family are very open minded and they just speak whatever comes to their mind such as Deidre's mother ;).

surprise ! we surprised Suet Teng with the cake and ....

the cinderella love shape balloon which suited her very much :). Happy 19th birthday and less camwhoring :P All the best to aussie soon !!

I like this photo the most...and the way Sheena described this photo in her bloggie :

"I got mushed!! Deidre was about to.....Suet smelled it and so did Dian after that...June has no idea on what's going on...Chew Lian is trying her best to hold the breath in"

I enjoyed it very much, guys ! Till we meet up again ! Muackss...Huggies puff-puff XD