two zero one zero

Here comes the end of 2009...

Nothin seem to be difference to me..

I had been spending the entire year for chemotherapies, ct scans, Pet scan , blood check and radiotherapies. I had been spending most the times goin up and down the hospital, chitchatting with those nurses and docs and receiving treatments.

I m very grateful that all the docs and nurses treated me very well. Thanks to Kak Yati who was by my side all the time and cheer me up when i m in pain .Thanks to Dr Jerome, who always try to give me good news to make me feel better. and Thank to Dr Alex who sacrificed my last vein...hahaha...but Dr Alex is a good guy and marvelous listener.He often speak something very meaningful to me :P. I suddenly miss them so muchhhhhhhhhh...They had been my best friends for the whole year !!! :P Of course not forgetting my parents and my siblings who are with me all the time when i m fighting with my disease. Thanks to my elder sis who sacrificed most of the free time to accompany to for the whole month when you are at home !!! too many ppl that i felt very grateful too..Thanks everyone for supporting and stay by my side when i m down or weak !! Kamsahamida !! Saranghae yo !! Happy NEw YEar !!

I m goin to turn 21 tomorrow :

Although i m a bit disappointed and i dont get to enjoy the year like most ppl act did , i gained something even more meaningful instead of living my life blindly . I think i m growing up to be more a woman but not a silly , unthoughtful little girl. I m very glad that i m able to think more wisely before taking any action.I m also very glad that i dont have to depend on my parents so much and i can earn some money to ease some of my parents' burden. :) I had started to create more organic recipes to make myself and person around healthier and changing my food habit . besides, instead of having a "black face", i started to smile more to other ppl no matter wherever i go.well, Smile is the most friendly act okay ??

Like Morrie said in the seventh Tuesday : The Fear of Aging

"As you grow. you learn more.If you stayed at 22,you'd always be as ignorant as you were at 22.Aging is not just a decay, you know.It's GROWTH .It's more than the NEGATIVE that you're goin to die, it's also POSITIVE that you understand you're goin to die, and that YOU LIVE A BETTER LIFE BECAUSE OF IT. "

"But if aging is so valuable, why do ppl always say, " OH, I WISH I WERE YOUNG AGAIN." you never hear ppl say, "I WISH I WERE 65." " You know what reflects?" UNSATISFIED LIVES. UNFULFILLED LIVES. LIVES THAT HAVEN'T FOUND THE MEANING. BECAUSE IF YOU'VE FOUND MEANING IN YOUR LIFE, YOU DONT WANNA GO BACK.YOU WANT TO GO FORWARD .YOU WANT TO SEE MORE, DO MORE. YOU CAN'T WAIT UNTIL 65.

2010, i have new resolutions !!

1) I want to be completely cancer free !!! Say no to Hogskin Lymphoma.

2) God, please bless the Leukimia-ns...Ease their pain pls....

3) Travelling alone (omg..I had been wishing this for two years la, hopefully nothing stop me anymore :()

4 ) Hope everyone stay healthy always.

5) Create morrrreeeeeeeeee Organic recipess :)

6) Go to the beach .

7) Its time to back to coll :P

See you in TWO ZERO ONE ZERO !!

Aza aza Hwaiting !!