Manic Monday

Woke up at 6.15 am ..
Prepared to go the hospital....Aww..
So lazy to drag myself to the hospital
The most unpleasant place to visit T_T

So, i waited and waited and waited ....
Zzzzz...After two hours..finally i m being called to see the doctor


The reports out..
sounds good..but not good enough... Hmm...
50% of my tumor already clear..


Then Dr Tan said he need to change some stronger chemo now..
i might suffer more...
so i cried out like hell...I m so phobic of chemo now....so scare
wondering which vein m i goin to use since most of the veins are hard now (the veins on my hand)
still abit phobic of needle...(considering chemo port on my chest )

But the nurse are very supportive..she sayang sayang me :)
she said : y r u crying ? ur disease is the easiest disease to cure. There are more people who are less fortunate than you ...dont cry lar.. (okayyy, i knew i m daddy's daughter and i m like crying baby)
Daddy saw me cried oso tak sampai hati ....:(
Sorry for makin u worry... :)
I ll try to be brave again !!

Doc said i need 2 more chemo..
Each chemo i have to stay in ward for 3 days respectively...
He wanted all the tumor inside my body clear completely in this 2 chemo..
Then , i ll go for PET Scan in Putrajaya...


I should be happy..since i dont need to take so many chemos...i should be optimistic...but why i m i still scare? I had been gone through 8 times of chemos, surgery,needles...just two only.y i m worry ??



I ll be in ward soon..but i dont know when(waiting calls from ward :) )... and i dont know when can i blog back...dont worry, very sooooooonnn..Now, i need to sleeeeeeeppppppp...its 10.30pm now..hehe... tata~~

MIssssss me lots lots yea

-xoxo-

RUN CHEWLIAN RUN !!