two zero one zero

Here comes the end of 2009...

Nothin seem to be difference to me..

I had been spending the entire year for chemotherapies, ct scans, Pet scan , blood check and radiotherapies. I had been spending most the times goin up and down the hospital, chitchatting with those nurses and docs and receiving treatments.

I m very grateful that all the docs and nurses treated me very well. Thanks to Kak Yati who was by my side all the time and cheer me up when i m in pain .Thanks to Dr Jerome, who always try to give me good news to make me feel better. and Thank to Dr Alex who sacrificed my last vein...hahaha...but Dr Alex is a good guy and marvelous listener.He often speak something very meaningful to me :P. I suddenly miss them so muchhhhhhhhhh...They had been my best friends for the whole year !!! :P Of course not forgetting my parents and my siblings who are with me all the time when i m fighting with my disease. Thanks to my elder sis who sacrificed most of the free time to accompany to for the whole month when you are at home !!! too many ppl that i felt very grateful too..Thanks everyone for supporting and stay by my side when i m down or weak !! Kamsahamida !! Saranghae yo !! Happy NEw YEar !!

I m goin to turn 21 tomorrow :

Although i m a bit disappointed and i dont get to enjoy the year like most ppl act did , i gained something even more meaningful instead of living my life blindly . I think i m growing up to be more a woman but not a silly , unthoughtful little girl. I m very glad that i m able to think more wisely before taking any action.I m also very glad that i dont have to depend on my parents so much and i can earn some money to ease some of my parents' burden. :) I had started to create more organic recipes to make myself and person around healthier and changing my food habit . besides, instead of having a "black face", i started to smile more to other ppl no matter wherever i go.well, Smile is the most friendly act okay ??

Like Morrie said in the seventh Tuesday : The Fear of Aging

"As you grow. you learn more.If you stayed at 22,you'd always be as ignorant as you were at 22.Aging is not just a decay, you know.It's GROWTH .It's more than the NEGATIVE that you're goin to die, it's also POSITIVE that you understand you're goin to die, and that YOU LIVE A BETTER LIFE BECAUSE OF IT. "

"But if aging is so valuable, why do ppl always say, " OH, I WISH I WERE YOUNG AGAIN." you never hear ppl say, "I WISH I WERE 65." " You know what reflects?" UNSATISFIED LIVES. UNFULFILLED LIVES. LIVES THAT HAVEN'T FOUND THE MEANING. BECAUSE IF YOU'VE FOUND MEANING IN YOUR LIFE, YOU DONT WANNA GO BACK.YOU WANT TO GO FORWARD .YOU WANT TO SEE MORE, DO MORE. YOU CAN'T WAIT UNTIL 65.

2010, i have new resolutions !!

1) I want to be completely cancer free !!! Say no to Hogskin Lymphoma.

2) God, please bless the Leukimia-ns...Ease their pain pls....

3) Travelling alone (omg..I had been wishing this for two years la, hopefully nothing stop me anymore :()

4 ) Hope everyone stay healthy always.

5) Create morrrreeeeeeeeee Organic recipess :)

6) Go to the beach .

7) Its time to back to coll :P

See you in TWO ZERO ONE ZERO !!

Aza aza Hwaiting !!

Hard Days

*Dont think i ll be posting about Ipoh and Bangkok...lazy...teeehehehe

Such a difficult week i had ...phew!!

Tmr will be even more tough and the following weeks too..

Radiotherapy may seem less suffering as what you guys heard ...

But i still find it quite suffering lar...

The therapies are painless and it only take 5min each time

But after the therapy, i would have headache.

I feel very hot and thirsty and no appetite for food.

Most importantly, i feel sleepy...

This is how i feel so far.

I heard from doc the side effects would be worse from day to day,week to week.

I m well prepare now !! :)

Ohyea !! I got my Iris soundtrack like few weeks ago ?!!!

show off abit to u la..

U might said i kena racun or obsess with the drama !

BUt i m totally into it and still listening the ost like no one business...HAHA..

n Brilliant Legacy which i pretty obsessed previously..tada !!

To tell you the truth, I really love to collect dramas ost...I can take pic for my whole collection to show u la....

Love those ost and they cant find in Malaysia ya know !!

Thanks to my fav Gmarket which provided such a good quality soundtracks !!

On the other hand, I just finished reading Tuesday with Morrie...

I would said this is really a inspiring book ..Highly recommended !!

I learnt many things from the book. Life and death :)

I feel like sharing my thought from chapter to chapter if possible hehe

I read till the book already became "Kiam Chai" (salty vege in hokkien dialect)

I m goin to highlight the important things that Prof Morrie said ..

No wonder PuiMun said Mitch Albom's books are magical...HAHAHAHA...

Now i understand liao... :P

Another quote i love from Tuesdays with Morrie :

"Love is when you are as concerned about someone else's situation as you are about your own."

I pretty like this quote and i dont think many people would able to make it like the quote above.So are you this type of person ?? Back then , i was not but now i m because I had gone through the toughest thing in my life. :) Be sincere!

chewlian

Are you trying to be as Human as you can be ?

Okay, my X'mas and New Year for this year were ruined again !

Attempted to plan a party but failed.

I never have a proper celebration for myself.

I had requested to my sis to throw me a very interesting theme party when i m fully recover but the prob is WHEN ?

Radiotherapy starts tomorrow.

According to doc, i might hav difficulty to swallow food for some time cos my throat will hurt.

My skin will turn dark.

I m not ready but i have no choice.

I must be very very strong cos i told my mum i ll try my best to be strong.

Hard times will pass very fast and happy times will be coming ahead

Bless me and wish me luck.

Hope all the 6cm mass will be disappear after 20times of therapies.

I would like to try to back to Kumon but my parents dont seem to allow me to go to work for now until i finish all the treatments

But ..but i m goin to miss all the kiddiesss

especially Lil princess Hannah ...teeehehehee...

This is the only part time job i m looking forward all the time and i learnt a lot of things from the job lar....

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On the other hand, i had finished watching IRIS series

But Hyun Joon was shoot to dead when he was on his way to propose Seung-Hee

Alar..the ending was so so so pathetic lar..i dont like!!! :(

If Lee Byung Hun(Hyun Joon) is goin to continue Season 2, he would have marry Kim Tae Hee(Seung-Hee) in the drama....AWWWWW !!

Yipeeee...got news about Iris casts is goin to Nz,Aus, Italy...etc to film season 2...keke...

I wanna go tooo !! hehe...

Currently addicted to Seo in Young- Cant i love and Michael Buble- Havent Met You Yet

Those two songs are awesome !!! Love ittttttttt !! :P

Read Tuesday with Morrie lately and still on the way, i would like to adapt some sentences that i like the most for you guys:

" So many people walk around with a meaningless life.They seem half-asleep, even they re busy doing things they think are important.This is because they are chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others ,devote yourself to your community around you,and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."

Give yourself some spaces and times, slow down your pace and think about your life :)

P/s : will try to get some time post up about Ipoh. TIll then , Goodbye

-ChewLian-

Ann yeong haseyeo

Hello, people !

Just back from ipoh on sat and busy attending my cousin wedding since she was the 1st cousin who married ! kekee..

Well, ipoh trip was very fruitful

We got to stay in 5-star Koay Family Villa...hahaha

We ate alot of nice food and i started to miss Dim Sum, Hor Fun and green colour Soya Bean !! :)

Felt Guilty for eating too much of fish balls since cant eat meat now

When i came back, i seriously wanting to eat more green vegetables...HAHA...lol

Feel Good to be home..Get to eat mum's cooking food ler ! :P

But goin to leave home tmr again ! :P

Goodbye Malaysia, Savadikaa Bangkok !

This time i wont control myself

Will shopping till i drop no matter how.

no one could stop me

its been a year since i shopped ...So...

Its time for chewlian to show her hidden talent : SHOPPING !!!!!!

My Hair grew very long and dark n bushy !

So i decided not to depend on my cap so much!

Tell u what ! I m a Stage 3 Hogskin Lymphoma patient!

I had just managed to finished all the chemotherapy !

Cheeerrrsss !! I m fine now !

Amitabha !!

will post more about ipoh sooonnn..very soon right after i m back from bangkok, hopefully

Yak-sok- geh ! (Promise)

P/s : why my pic can never be clear when i post on the bloggie one ?? Any idea ??!!

Love of iris

After i listened Baek ji young's new song , Dont forget, i cried becos it was so touching eventhough i dont understand the lyrics tht time
And now , i know !! Such a meaningful lyrics.
Then, as i watched more Iris, i found another song that touched my heart,
LOVE OF IRIS by Shin Seung Hun .

I dont know what kind of music or songs u might like,
but i like comfortable and nice lyrics songs and i would like to share with everyone :)
Enjoy the song !!

P/s : Ipoh tis comin thursday and fri and Bangkok next Thursday !! CHeerrrssssss !! :P For my dears frens who are goin to have their exam soon, all the best yea ! God Bless You !! btw, WELCOME BACK TO MALAYSIA , SUSAN!!!