ooppss, i had spent my precious time on thinking something nonsense . omg ! i seriously need to change myself :)
*hope the post below wont offend you. If they are, Be free to leave some comments . I dont mind. THank you !! Just speak what's in your mind *
Brain & beauty , these are the two things tht i m being threaten all the time and just realised after i had conversations with my elder sis .well, if these two things u have to choose , what will you choose, BRAIN or BEAUTY ?? i dont know what i should choose to be honest lar
I dont have brain neither beauty. Is it important to have a smart brain and pretty face ??? I have no idea but my mum said as long as we have two eyes, a nose , a mouth, two ears , two normal hands and legs and and healthy body :). Living in such a realistic society , people tend to prefer beauty than brain.
I m pretty disappointed with this society ( i know i had been mentioned for so many times !!) . I had 73 kg when i was in my high school. u know, fast food OVERDOSED !! HAHaHa...I was not very active nor keen in these curricular activities. Indeed , i m a very bad student. Terribly BAD !! My seniors who werent fair seniors . They tend to give their friends high positions and give more priority to them. as for not-so-popular students have no chance to get a positions. U know pretty girls always get more intentions. If u are pretty, all the teachers, seniors, bosses will like you. They ll pay more attention to u instead of those not-so-popular person.In addition, most of the guys will run after pretty girls because they are all blind. Then they ll talk to pretty girls and belittle those not-so-pretty girls. Thats why i wasnt like to know new people because i truly understand that i ll be isolated. I would prefer to mix with those non-popular people because they are the one who need more friendship. When people are talking about how many As' they have got, what i have to do is remain silent because i m afraid that poeple will not befriend with me. I never have a good results and i have nothin to be proud of .
i know i m not as pretty as those stars . I m not a gentle girl who move so slow and talk so softly that people couldnt hear. i m not a good actress like those girls pretend in front of the guys . i speak whatever comes to my mind and i do whatever i think i should do. that why people say i m a cruel person. rmb, i was forced to be if not i dont know whether i can survive in this cruel society. I have no idea what is your true face and i m always having dilemma in deciding whether that person is a good one or a bad. I just want to be myself !!
Recently , i met a very typical Malaysian which i m not really satisfy of . There is this store, Miss Selfridge which i m had been their regular customers for years in Sunway Pyramid. So, i was testing this blouse for Size 12 (i normally wear Size 10 ) and this blouse is non-stretchable one. and then i found that i cant button up the blouse which the button was near to my breast( the rest of the body is fit ) Hence, i asked for Size 14. U know what the stupid staff said !! "Mayb u should try in Dorothy Perkins, we dont have size 14". such a humiliation in front of my fren !!! Duh !! Never mind, at least i can fit in the Size 12 now because that time i was too rush so i thought i couldnt. NExt time i ll wear to the store and show that bitch !!
I could really understand people who are overweight because i m too . our self-esteem is low and we have no confident to face most of the people. but some people never understand. When u walk around the KL shopping malls, please be notice that Malaysian girls like to give a weirdy look to other girls.. SO not manner la !!
Ohyea, another thing. I have no brain and beauty. I wonder why my fellow cousins are so threatened by me . If they are threatened by my elder sis's brain, i think its normal becos typical malaysians' girl are so full of jealousy.They cant bear with it when people are smarter or prettier... Aiyo !!My elder sis is being so nice to my cousins, even their eldest sis got married, my sis even sent a congratulation email and she dont seem to reply my sis mail for appreciation . This kind of person also got !! SEee !! SSEEE !! i got good example !! I m always making the first move to get along with my cousins, but i dont seem them co-operating with me. People are always complimenting them for being smart ,pretty, helpful....etc etc. If guys see them , i think they ll see them as a Goddess . Trust me...They look so innocent , so gentle...lol..this is all fake lar... i think there is a wall btw us , n i dont think we can improve in our relationships anymore because they are not making effort to befriend with us. They are always living in their own world which we siblings couldnt fit in. Frankly, i m threatened by their brain & beauty.
I just want a simple life. I wanna be myself.
P/s : Luckily i have my loving family and a bunch of nice friends !! thanks for colouring my life !!
